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Overdue resolutions

2012-01-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

You know, with the New Year gone by 11 days, you'd think this post is kinda overdue. First, I'm going to recap the past year's resolutions.

One of it, I recall, was to lose weight. Check.

Another was to actively exercise. Check.

So I managed to kinda achieved what I needed to for the past year. That's great to know! For once, I sticked by my resolutions.

Now, to make some for this year.

1) To maintain weight from 64-68kg, with no potbelly/tummy
Now, I've been told that I'm obsessed with my weight management. I have a reason to, folks. You must understand, I worked hard to lose off 29-30kg for the past year. I wouldn't want my work undone that easily! One of my plans is to exercise more if I want to eat more. I don't plan to restrain from food as it's unhealthy, and life is too short to not indulge and enjoy. However, I will work hard to maintain my weight as it's important to keep fit and healthy. As for the potbelly/tummy part, I guess I just want to look good, haha. Who the hell wants a thin body with a lot of belly fat?

The plan's to let myself indulge, but there must be a limit. For example. Day One I'll allow Delicacy 1 as a 1x Good Meal, then for the other meals, I try to not eat so much.

2) Be more sensible.
I'm going to be 21 this year. It's time I grew more mature and be sensible, of myself and of others. I've been noted to have not taken note of others' feelings at time. Whoever I might have offended, I apologise. It was a mistake on my part, and I am deeply regretful. Please forgive me.

3) Smile more.
I've been noted by friends that I stopped being as active and bubbly as I was back then when I was more horizontally inclined. To be honest, I have no idea why. Maybe it was the abstinence from food. Maybe it was NS. There are a lot of maybes, but I really have no idea why. But this stops here. It's time to smile, laugh and joke more back like the old days.

4) Train myself physically more.
Yeah, all of you are gonna tell me that I'm a sell-on, with me running like a mad man every chance I get. Thing is, I still haven't passed my IPPT. My aim now is to get IPPT Gold by ORD. And also, I want to run a full marathon when I ORD. So with my present state, it's still far from possible. I need to train. Anyway, it'll keep me healthy too, so it's 2 birds with 1 stone.

Yeah, so the above are the resolutions I gave myself so far. Hopefully I can achieve them well, like last year's resolutions. ZH, go go go!

Appreciation... of waffles. :)

2012-01-01T19:18:00.001+08:00

After 18 weeks in BMT AT Palau Tekong, anybody would definitely learn how to appreciate life. I, for one, have learnt how to appreciate good food outside of Tekong during my weekends.

Today, I'll talk about waffles.

Oh yeah~

Waffles are my comfort food, they come in all sorts of different flavours. You have plain waffles, pandan waffles, coffee waffles. Bakeries generally stuff them with kaya, margarine, peanut butter, strawberry/blueberry jam, chocolate and cheese. Some unique stores would add in maple syrup, chocolate banana, chocolate cornflake, honey, ham & cheese and in one place I saw but never got to try (regrettably), D24 durian into their menu. In some places, they're coated with ice cream, or served with fried chicken.

To me, they're something I can't every say no to. And since I love pastry, this makes it even harder for me to say no.

So this New Year, I wish to dedicate my appreciation to the existence of waffles. :) I've been hearing about Prima Deli selling really really good ones, so I'm going to head down and get one first chance I get.

I'm not even caring if I get fat over it. I'll scarf them down first chance I get!

My time at Kumon...

2011-08-22T16:01:00.001+08:00

I should've posted this post two days ago, but I've been a busy man. Enlistment is tomorrow, and I've been doing some last minute shopping/packing/hair cutting. So, guys, sorry for the late post! This is dedicated to you people at Kumon whom I've met and been with for 8-9 months.

Think I'll go with a individual thanks to each and every single one of you I know. Might leave people out by accident, so don't kill me over this! Let NS do it instead.

Colleagues:

Mr Yang: Big Boss! You've been a good employer for all this time. I don't really talk to you often, but my impression is that you can be scary at times when you're angry, although it's only towards the students. However, I can tell that you have the students' best interests in heart, and I highly respect you for that. Good luck in your endeavours!

Elaine: The “大姐大” of the centre. You sort of represent an elder sister persona I don't really have. It's always great talking with you and joking, along with everyone else. Stay nice, send my regards to Wiz. And thanks for the shirt. It's awesome. Will keep in contact!

Uncle Yang: You're probably the eldest friend I have. Always joking with me, sharing advice and giving me wise words. Take care!

Aunty Nancy: You were probably the nicest person I ever known so far, always offering a helping hand to all of us in need. I'm very grateful to you. Take care of yourself, Aunty Nancy! Thanks for the sushi treat back then. =)

Vivian: Hi Vivian, you're the first person I really know apart of KY and Leslie in the centre, since you're my mentor. My first impression of you is the silent, mature person, and I didn't really talk to you much earlier on. But I know that you're a friendly individual who's always helpful, and we sort of became friends eventually. Stay awesome. =) Keep in contact!

KY: Ah, basket, no need say so much about you. Always tell me I'm some weird animal every single time. Will without doubt hang out with you even more than usual. Ciao. =]

Leslie: Late night suppers with you after work last time was always enjoyable. Too bad you "vanished" soon after. Take care, man. Meet up for a meal of something when I book out.

Henry: First time I met you was during dinner when KY intro-ed you to me. Pretty nice guy, and we became familiar with one another when we were moving centres, when you started making fun of me like KY. Was a pity you left early. Stay cool.

Evelyn: Very nice person to talk to, friendly, and always smiling. I always enjoyed chatting with you at random moments. Sort of a little surprise when we later realised we both came from Pei Hwa. Hope to see you around randomly around this small island again!

Valerie: I didn't really talk much with you before, but we worked together during the centre moving. It was funny seeing you and Henry design the "maze table system", which is being used till now. Good luck out there!

Anna: Chatting with you was always pleasant, and we would share some jokes, while you would give me little advices about NS, since your son is still in. Take care!

Xue Hui: I've only seen and talked to you for once or twice, and I can feel that you're the peppy, nice person. Well, most people I know from SMA are like that. Stay nice, and see you around!

Yao Cong: First time I met you, you had the grumpy grumpy face on, so I thought "Oh, I better don't mess with this guy", but after that, hanging out several times with you, I find out that you're easy to talk to, and also very friendly. "Cong-ge aka Admin Manager-Dream-On", take care, and see you around!

Kang Hao: Hao-ge! Sort of became friendlier with you after graduation, since both of us are working on almost every working day. It's cool to talk to me, and sometimes make fun of you a bit as well. Now you're in NS. Take care, and don't overwork yourself in there!

Peck Har: Started talking to you after I always started marking, while you did Liberal. Best impression of you was when you replaced me once. Another impression is when you came in with Seoul Garden smell, only to be made fun of by me. Thanks. Stay nice, see you around!

Poh Ling: I know you as the girl with a phobia of lizards, and imitating your screams are the best entertainment outlet I could have. Ok, joking, stay friendly, see you around!

Wei Fang: First impression of you is that you are helpful and friendly. You always try to help when possible, and also engage in small conversations. Take care, and hope to see you about!

I'd like to talk about my students, but on second thought, it's not good to disclose children's names in a public blog. Plus, I'm lazy. Take care, everyone. Hope to bump into any of you, somewhere, sometime. Stay handsome/pretty/sharp/nice/friendly. =)

If you feel the need to keep in contact, add me on Facebook, or on MSN at palmofgloom@hotmail.com.

Countdown

2011-08-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

So, I'm enlisting on the 23rd. 1 week left. Really, really, SIAN.

To all the friends I talk to, but seldom meet up with, please do remember me and meet up when we could try to . To those that I often see, keep in touch. Let's hang out whenever we can afford the time.

I'm still planning to work out daily till 21st. I'll let my body rest on the 22nd, go cut my hair and stuff.

This Saturday will be my last day of work. I'll put up a thank you post for my colleagues then.

Still feels unreal. O_O

Sinful foodzzzzz

2011-08-08T18:47:00.000+08:00

Popeyes yesterday, Nihon Mura sushi buffet today.

Dang, I just threw part of my weight loss plans out of the window. >_< Although I'd still be trying to lose weight through NS, it's just sad how I succumbed to temptation. I'm... contradicting myself, aren't I? Lolz.

ANYWAY, for people who haven't seen me in ages, here's a little photo documentation for you all. Don't tell me there's no change, lol. Garry practically told me there wasn't any difference in me back then when he saw me. Brooooo, how could you say that?

Left: 96kg ; Right: 76kg

Looking through old photos, I keep on wondering why I didn't do this weight loss right from the start. I regret not starting earlier. Had I done so, I would've lost till my ideal 68 by now and started maintaining it. And I wouldn't have looked like a pig in clothing in those pictures.

And you could understand my whining about fat foodzzz and such.

I mean, I've been working hard to reduce my weight down to a satisfactory level. And results have shown, and I just went and did stuff that contradicted it and might reverse that situation. I feel so... guilty about it.

Tomorrow, I shall push my limits during my morning run and try to burn more calories and waste more energy. 68 is my target for now. Go go go! Shall also cut down on fatty food for the week.

Support me, friends, family. I shall cut down to 65 in the end and maintain it. Mark my words. I will never be fat in my entire life again.

Prelude to National Service

2011-08-05T09:36:00.000+08:00

Haha, soon, I'll be on my "vacation" to Palau Tekong Besar, undergoing a 19 week "service" by our country's finest. To be honest, a part of me is looking forward to it, while another part of me dreads the freedom that's going to be taken away from me.

2 weeks left! I can't believe how time flies. I've spent most of my time working, or staying at home, doing stuff like cleaning my room and also my personal physical training. This month is the only time I must properly enjoy myself. Too bad a lot of my friends are having their final semester exams this month, so seeing them properly is sort of out of the question. Been hanging out with whoever I can call out now, mostly with good ol' Ern. Awesome buddy to hang out FTW.

So I've been asking myself why I still work although I should be having fun outside? Well, actually, my workplace is a pretty cool place to hang out. Colleagues are awesome. Some students are also very awesome. I'm going to miss them when I leave. Seriously. >_< It's too bad I can't take the liberty of suddenly taking leave to meet up my Primary School mates, who are having dinner tonight while I'm working. They're an awesome bunch too. I enjoyed the one primary school gathering I went to. Pity I couldn't attend most of the others due to school and work commitments. I'm too busy a guy. >_<

As for family, I know I can get to see them every Saturday, so it's not that bad.

Sigh, I really can't bear to part from civilisation. NS just takes that away from you... To those who are having exams soon, do your best. I'll try not to die in NS. Already two casualties just this week. Hope I'm not the unlucky next, haha... Then we can meet up. =)

Super food?

2011-08-01T13:50:00.000+08:00

For quite a bit, my mum's been making me some fruit + water mixture that she told me lowers blood pressure and such. Because it tastes good, I've been consuming it occasionally since last year. I read the labels, and turns out the mysterious red goo I've been consuming is called "Mulberry Vinagar". Vinegar is something I already have ideas of what it is, but mulberry? First time I saw such a word. So it's up to Google to answer my questions.

Mulberry (also the name of a tech company which I don't have any idea does what) is a fruit. According to several sites, it is not just a normal fruit. Like an apple, it's a SUPER fruit. It aids in digestion, regulates blood cholesterol levels, helps treat diabetes, lowers blood pressure, people consume it after surgery to heal faster, and pregnant woman drink it after delivery etc etc. I remember there were still benefits like it being rich in a large varieties of vitamins that boosts metabolism and such, but I can't remember all of them.

So, yesterday, my mum bought a tank (exaggerating here) of it, and I started drinking it twice per day. Hopefully, it helps in my weight loss, since its benefits seems to do that as well.

Super food number two is the apple (which ironically, is the name of yet another tech company we ALL happen to know). The adage "An apple per day keeps the doctor away" is no mystery to most of us (One iPad per day sounds awesome). Thing is, I've been reading up on apples' benefits because I've been consuming it in place of other snacks like potato chips, chocolates and all the junk food you can think of.

Apple peels or as we call it, the apple skin, is extremely beneficial to the health of the everyday man. It has weight loss properties imbued within, can lower cholesterol, and is a good source of insoluble fibre which will send you to the toilet everyday for your regular dump. The flesh is a good source of Vitamin C, and contains some weird chemical (forgot the name) that can make you feel full, even though 95kcal worth of food usually can't do that. People like me, who have used apples to substitute my meals and snacks, can effectively tell you that it's extremely useful if you're trying to lose off the fats you've built up.

So yeah, the two super food above should help me more and more in my weight loss crusade. It's been tough recently, but it's time to start gorging down the fruits and reducing the fats.

Random thoughts... again

2011-07-31T01:27:00.000+08:00

Today, I sort of went shopping for some clothes with my amazing mother. So despite the fact that I'm still getting smaller, I just decided to get some clothes my current size, because I decided that a) my super baggy clothes really make me look fatter than I really am. b) baggy clothes really really can be uncomfortable when they feel like they're falling off every second.

So I selected some, my mother selected some. But today's topic is not about that. The clothes have a story, but that's for another day.

So these few days, my weight loss has been a minor topic among my colleagues. By 'minor', I mean that it's a topic that lasts 3 minutes tops. They were surprised that I've lost 19kg, and some had told me that I already look fine with all the weight gone. My grandma herself even said it's already fine. I got a slight bit of reassurance from all of their words. I didn't expect to stop my routines, but I thought that maybe I could try easing up on them.

At least till this afternoon.

The thing about shopping is this. When you're shopping for men's clothes, other men are also around you shopping, so I can immediately grasp the fact that even though I got smaller, I'm still more "king-sized" than average guys. Which means I probably still have a long way to go.

Sort of a let down for me. I guess that even if I lost a lot, the main thing is in losing what needs to be lost. And I still haven't currently reach that target. Disheartening, but reality is like this. It was partially my fault that I got fatter and fatter back then too.

Now, all I can do is to try losing more, and more, till I reach my target. Got to do my best, and do what I can do now.

Cardio increase

2011-07-24T19:15:00.000+08:00

Starting from yesterday, I increased the amount of my workout. From 3.2km per day + 150 sit ups -> 4.2km per day +200 sit ups. Plus, I try to walk as much as I can as possible. Cardio is effective, good for the lungs, heart, blood pressure, cholesterol control etc. etc.

So that makes my first workout (the 3.2 +150 as I call it) done for 9 weeks 2 days.

Come to think about it, when I first started my workout, 3.2km + 150 sit ups were tough on my body. I curse the distance everyday back then. Then when I got slightly used to it (like I said, you can NEVER be fully used to exercise), I told myself that I'll increase my workout when my weight goes down to 80kg. I procrastinated till I got to 79kg when I finally started the increase.

Got to say, it's tough. The first day I started it, I surprisingly managed to withstand the 4.2 km workout, but today, the second day, I very almost vomited violently.

However, once the "hangover" got away, I got the thrill, the sense of achievement. I can do this. I'm going to get lighter.

Oh yeah, I've also managed to do a few pull ups, but sadly, with the lower pull up bar only. Hopefully I'll be able to use the higher bar soon. But it's an achievement.

Nowadays, I try to walk whenever I get the opportunity, just to increase my cardio intake. I'm a big eater, see. According to a calculator, I can only indulge in 1600 kcal of food if I want to lose 1.5kg per week. So increasing the amount of energy spent even if it's a little, to me, is very important.

Right now, I'm 78 kg. Starting from 96kg, to me, this is a huge difference. But if I were to want to meet national standards in BMI, which is to say, 22.9 in Singapore, I'm going to have to be 68kg or lesser. So 10 more kg to go. I know BMI is only 33% accurate, muscle mass volume is heavier yadah yadah... but I want to become smaller. I'm not the kind of guy who wants bulks of muscles. ;)

So here we go. Wish me luck. I'll do my best!

P.S.: I realise that for once, I'm actually following my every year's new year resolution of losing weight, haha. That's seriously a first! :P

BATAMMMMMMM

2011-07-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

A little late on the update, haha, but here goes

9th July. The first time in 8 years I'm going overseas (unless you cheat and count Sentosa). To me, I thought, hey, a little exposure, lots of fun. Why not?

The ferry ride there sort of upset my stomach. On top of that, all our seats were scattered, so it was hard trying to distract myself from the discomfort. Reaching there was good though, in more ways than one. Another country which I've never visit before: Indonesia, Batam.

I must point out that the air wasn't exactly the cleanest, and we've been warned by every single tour guide to be cautious of pickpockets and those ninja kidnapper taxi drivers we think only exist in scary stories. But I loved the hotel. I loved the shopping, and most of all, I loved the bonding.

To me, this trip is sort of pointless if not for the right crowd of people.

Oh yeah, there was this funny mini-adventure that happened.

I was heading down one floor to find some of the others, since we were all scattered to different rooms on different floors. As I enter the elevator, I realised that the key card is needed to activate it. Since Ern (my roommate) needed it, I decided to use the stairs. So ignoring the "Emergency Exit", I opened the door and entered the stairway.

Turns out the door was one-sided. Which means, you can get in, but you sure as hell can't get out. Being calm, I decided that the first floor's door should be two sided, and I should be able to get out. So climbing down, I reached the sixth floor, where the door was open due to some damage. I got in the elevator and just purely waited for the elevator to carry me to the first floor where I can give Ern a call at our room to come fetch me.

Good thing Michelle, Nicholas and Cheryn were there, wanting to head to McDonalds for desert. While they headed to the washroom, I checked out the first floor's emergency exit door.

Turns out it was one-sided as well.

Guess I got lucky. (Y)

Moral of the story: Don't use anything with "emergency" on it UNLESS it's really an emergency.

Will update you guys again soon, if anyone's still reading. Ciao. :D

Running in the rain~

2011-06-30T08:18:00.000+08:00

While doing it, I felt an urge to share my "first experience" with people who are still reading my blog. It was something I had prevented doing at all cost after all, and I did it today. I didn't do it by choice. I was halfway through my jogging when the drops fell, and I thought "Fuck it!" and decided to finish off the other half.

Running in the rain! In dramas, it would be romantic, melodramatic, and scenes of "running through the rain to find the dejected person whom you happen to be in love with". For some slightly realistic and practical people, the rain would serve to "wash off your sweat", the wind "cool you down as you run" and such. The unhygienic would say, "If you are thirsty, raise your head and you have a drink". So yeah, plenty of advantages right? You practically levelled up as a man!

Now let me explain why the hell it sucks.

Running in the rain means that while you are moving at slightly higher than normal velocity, you are going against water. For those who swim, you know that water can be a bitch when you try walking through it. In other words, although it is on a lesser scale, there is water pressure pushing you, making you lose your stamina and balance. Next, with rain, humidity increases in the air. Oxygen intake is lessened, resulting in further stamina sapping.

Wind is awesome, but not when it's blowing rainwater into your eyes while you run. For those wearing spectacles, it'll be covered in water, and visibility will be near zero. So if you fall down while the floor is also slippery, ouch.

As for the rain cooling you down, it is an unhealthy procedure, and should never be done. Do you all know the purpose of warm-up exercises? It's to help your body feel the activity, and also to strengthen your joints to cope with extra stress incurred. When the rain cools your body down while you run (and warming up is most important in jogging), your body involuntarily cools down, and it might result in joint pains. It is also bad for the heart. I mean, everyone should have learnt from a young age that cooling your body down rapidly after exercise is bad for the heart, and have even killed people.

So yeah, now you know. My shoes are also now wet and I certainly hope that they dry off before my jog tomorrow. Well, I'm never likely to run in the rain anytime sooner.

First checkpoint target

2011-06-24T23:25:00.002+08:00

80kg by 9/7/11. 'Nuff said, let the exercising and dieting continue!

Weight loss programmmm

2011-06-22T08:19:00.001+08:00

And today, after weighing myself out, I realised that painstakingly, torturingly, 10kg has been lost! I've come a long way, 5 weeks and 3 days. Now 11 more kg to go, and I'll look normal. Hmm, it's a curious factor as to how I would look with that much weight lost...

Now, how the hell did I achieve it?

I guess the deciding factor came in around... 1 month plus ago?

"Dear Mr Lim Zi Hao

Your NS checkup has shown that your blood cholesterol is slightly above acceptable levels. Please consult a Polyclinic or personal physician to monitor your blood cholesterol level for health purposes.

Love,
CMPB"

Or something along those lines.

Anyway, I consulted a Polyclinic. The doctor's instructions were simple. Exercise more, no fast food, no egg yolks, no seafood...

WAIT A MINUTE. I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT SEAFOOD.

So after that, I waged a full out war against my body, watching what I eat, exercising daily. First, to reduce my cholesterol levels to healthy levels. My next checkup will be on July. Hopefully I will be able to touch prawns after that.

But I discovered a new love in apples, which I learnt, are rich in Vitamin C, reduce blood cholesterol, and the peel has the effect of helping in weight loss and healthy digestion. I'll probably be eating more and more apples for the rest of my life.

Another reason I've been torturing myself is that I've been convinced I might actually look good without all the fat.

You can start laughing now.

Anyway, after hearing that, my motivation actually increased. I can be quite vain also, haha.

I've been running 3.2km daily, 150 sit ups daily, and I walk home from work on workdays. And trust me, I hate running. You can never get used to jogging. It tears your lungs apart, makes your entire body warm for a few hours and sometimes makes you want to puke. But I'm going to continue. Because I've got the motivation to go on.

Well, I'll be updating my progress again soon. Like I said before, support me morally!

What I've been up to...

2011-06-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

This has been a very busy, but fruitful week for me. Photos might come in later. Let's start with Tuesday, because Monday was an eat/sleep/chores day.

Tuesday was SP Buddy. There were two workshops: the make-up workshop and the photography workshop. I was with Try, Sakinah, Gajesh, Nicholas, Gibson and Zainol. We made a bang, of sorts. And I saw some old faces from previous workshops. Overall, it was sort of fun with the ACER gang, while doing our job.

Wednesday and Thursday! These two days were really fun, really awesome. It was the ACER recruitment days! I was in charge of presenting what ACER is to them, and while doing so, I really relived many pleasant memories. Ren Sen, Cheryn, Zainol, Heng Khit, Garry, Chi Kit and Pearlyn were the awesome people there, with us hanging out while working. Some of the new people look peppy, and awesome, while others are nervous, afraid and frightened. It was fun seeing so many expression in these two days, and we had fun talking and doing "friend friend stuff".

So now, I'm still on my weight loss regime, having hit a minimum of 87kg for now at my lightest. That's 8-9kg lost, folks! I still have quite a long way to go, but support me morally! I'll fit out of my recent clothes soon. My pants are already all feeling really baggy. Size 38 -> Size 34, people!

I'm going to do what I can for now, for my endeavors, and I'm looking forward to more events before NS. Do talk to me when you all are free, the chance won't come after I enter Palau Tekong Holiday Resort with a haircut deal after all.

The difficulties of losing weight

2011-06-08T18:33:00.000+08:00

After enduring 3 1/2 weeks of daily jogging, my weight had dropped from 96kg -> 89.5-90kg. The final target is 74kg, where I won't be overweight anymore. It's a long way to go, but I'll get there, eventually.

It's almost been a month, so I thought I'd document the trials and difficulties I encountered...

1) Dragging your ass to the daily exercise regime.
This part is tough no matter how used I get to it. I will always be too lazy to go out for my daily 150 sit-ups + 3.2km jog, and every single day, I'll think about skipping it. It's a good thing I haven't succumbed to temptation though. I've even almost dropped the routine several times due to flu and backaches. However, the routine gave me a new mindset: If I were to skip a jog, I would feel a sense of unfinished business and guilt, so much that it would rob me of my sleep. That's what kept me going.

2) Denying myself the high calorie food
It's no secret that I'm a big eater. All my friends and family know that. Even in weight loss, that's a fact. However, I've been substituting my in-between meal snacks with apples and oranges. As I have a slightly high blood cholesterol, vitamin C in both of the fruits will help lower the blood cholesterol. Furthermore, they are high in dietary fibre, which aids in digestion. Another tip I used is to drink more water instead of soft drinks. It gives me a false sense of being full, and zero calories are input to my body. Besides, it also cleanses my body, as I have read in several websites for tips. Whenever I eat anything remotely high calorie, I would berate myself for the next few hours, sometimes till the next day. Another thing that sometimes takes away my sleep due to conscience.

3) Confidence
This one is a mental problem. You see, after 3 weeks of losing some weight, my mass suddenly became very constant. It doesn't go up, but the bad thing is, it doesn't go down. I've been told by family and friends not to be impatient, as fast weight loss is unhealthy, and results aren't supposed to come fast. Thing is, to me, when there are no results, I feel like my efforts aren't working out, and they affect me, sometimes making me want to give up. It's a good thing I still have my common sense about, telling me that as soon as I dropped all my routines, I'll go back to becoming fatter again.

Above are the problems I faced, and it's a good thing I have solutions right now for them. The encouragement given to me by family and friends were really great. Whenever I hear a "You've lost weight!", it gives me more reasons to run daily and keep to a healthy routine. Thank you, all of you.

Now then, I still have a lot of weight to lose, but I won't give up so easily. Even if there are little or no results, I'm going to go on, no matter what, as health is always important.

Change

2011-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

I realise that I need to break out of my shell. I mean, I'm the kind of person who's so inactive in life, my friends seldom take the initiative to even talk to me on MSN. I'm the one who takes the initiative, and I'm really envious of people who finds it naturally whenever their MSN rings up a notification. I mean, I feel surprised everytime it happens. And I'm almost always on MSN.

I guess confidence is one factor. I don't have much of that. I mean, I'm not handsome, good looking, cool, or whatever. I'm a fat, uncool kind of guy? Dunno if I'm bitching about myself too much, but maybe that's how people think. I don't dare to warm up to people, and I don't dare to talk much to people I don't really know. It's a problem to me, actually. When I try talking to people I don't really know, scenarios come to mind. "What if he/she thinks I'm an idiot?", "What if he/she doesn't want to be my friend?", "What if she thinks I'm flirting although I am not?". Etc, etc. And when I make new friends via events, it's probably the first and last time I meet the person. When I try talking to them on Facebook/MSN, the same questions above comes to mind. And I withdraw into my shell. Again. Seriously.

Physically, I need to change too. I've been jogging for 2 weeks straight now without letting up (and the daily jogs will continue), with a major changeover in my diet. Thing is, I find the weight loss too slow. I've been given advices by really great pals, who told me to take my time, and that weight loss should be taken of delicately, less it does harm to my health and all that. But I'm impatient. I keep feeling that if I change myself physically, maybe, mentally, I can change too. Perhaps to be more confident. They probably won't understand since they don't have my inferiority complex, but much appreciated advice, guys! I need to change, and every single action to me counts.

Like Obama said, "Change".

Countdown to graduation!

2011-05-23T18:48:00.000+08:00

Graduation's in 4 days!

Feels so unreal. Got the robe, the tie, the shirt, the pants.

Be there if you can, people. I need the photos to reminisce about when I'm old and rotting.

Loss

2011-05-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

I always thought that you would be there, but I guess that I took it for granted. In my memories, you would protect me, care for me, love me, bring me everywhere, treat me and teach me. You were one of my hero. The strongest person I know in my entire life.

Even when you were claimed to be a 'gone case', you hung in there, exceeding expectations, giving us hope that you could still be there, even if it is just a bit longer.

My regret was that I was unable to see you in your last moments, even though I knew that you were holding on with your last bits of strength. Even though I know that you had wanted to see me. It is a regret that will last my entire life.

I lament myself at the lack of tears I shed. I kept on asking myself why I didn't cry, even though it hurts so much. Even though with all my heart, I wanted the you in my memories, strong and steady, to come back to us.

You might have forgotten a small incident from when I was young. When I was 11-12, you brought me to school, and saw a boy insult me. After I attended my lessons, you proceeded to follow the boy and made him apologise to me the next day. In my heart, from that day on, you were my hero.

We had a lot of disagreements before, but now that I'm grown up, I see that almost all of those were my fault. But now, chances to apologise are gone.

Everyone loves you, and you'll be engraved in our memories forever. Rest well. I promise that I'll keep the family together.

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The Singapore General Elections this year has ended!

Somehow, I've seen a lot of views in the matter, and it's funny how the younger voters and reacting to politics as though they had cared about it before this. How shallow. The GE is not the Great Singapore Sale. It's an event that will decide the country's well-being for the next five years. Don't be naive.

There are those who think voting is a "trend" and votes for the opposition just for that. What are you doing? Buying an iPhone? No, what you're doing is deciding the country's future. "Every vote is sacred." Make the vote for the party that will act in your best interest, or your next generation's best interest. You're the ones in the work force, or will soon be in the work force. This affects you deeply.

But also, some parties are giving quite impossible promises. "The education system is faulty. We will let each classroom have only 20 students to a teacher.", "We promise that the cramming of MRTs during peak hours will be reduced." blablabla.

Looks nice on the surface? Let's see. 20 students to a teacher will mean doubling of school sizes and teaching staff in EVERY school in Singapore. Cramming of MRTs being reduced means that there'll be MRT jams, similar to traffic jams on the roads, which will cause more disquiet. The inefficiencies suddenly seem to be there, don't they? Don't get me started on the people who keeps on complaining about foreign talents. I'll be insulting their intelligence, and trust me, people whose intelligence gets insulted by me are on the very low end on the thinking level, since I'm not exactly a smart guy.

And also, like Garry said, I laugh at those who act like they felt pity that George Yeo stepped down, though they don't even know his status prior and accomplishments.

To be honest, I feel that this GE has shown the ugly side of many Singaporeans, and how we often lament, complain and groan.

Or maybe that's simply what democracy is.

3 Years!!!!

2011-03-20T01:07:00.004+08:00

3 years of Polytechnic life sailed through already. Right now, along with everyone, I'm waiting for the results to come in during March 22nd, and further notifications regarding the graduation ceremony.

It was a good three years. To me, I've gained a lot of things. But also, I've lost quite a bit. Equivalent exchange, I guess?

Year 1:
New class, new beginnings, new friends. I tried my best to make friends in Polytechnic, because my Secondary School life was miserable with little friends. As a result, I think I might have tried too hard. People didn't like it because I was overenthusiastic, and so I started to change myself bit by bit. It was for the better, I guess, but the first year was really when I underwent soul searching, and trying to understand people as well as dealing with them. I won't say I mastered the act completely, but I managed to get the basic points down.

I joined the Skates Club too, and engaged in a hobby I would never forgo. Although I UNOFFICIALLY quit at the end of the year, the skater in me is still here. It was also there that I experienced my only camp in SP. It was a great experience, because (I know this sounds pathetic), it's like one of the few camps I ever participated in all of my school years. I managed to know some friends, like Sam, Noelle, Yun... friends that I probably will seldom meet up again anytime sooner. But it was great knowing you guys.

Year 1 passed with me losing some naivety, but with newfound social knowledge. Sometimes, I wonder if I should keep some of the naivety?

Year 2:
Boy oh boy, this is the most impactful year out of my 3 years? As I signed up for the Teaching Factory option, I would reunite with some old classmates, and knew some new ones. I regretted knowing a scab, whom I thought was a good friend. In the end, all he did was care about himself and I understood that not every friend will return equal respect to you. So a lesson learnt about dealing with people. However, I also managed to make a few friends whom I am sure will remain in my life for quite a long time. So yeah, it was still fruitful. Ernest, Jonathan, Garry and Chi Kit, I'm talking about you guys.

Other from classes, the other community in school I joined was the SP ACERs. It was a club I never regretted joining. New friends made that in the end, became my good friends. We underwent several events, of which Escapade was the most amazing. I got to know Zack, Sen Rong, Cheryn, Madelyn... and also Escapade's entire Inspira 2009 gang. Through Escapade, I also managed to know Sophia, who is my "monster daughter", and "send" her into SP.

It was a year with ups and downs. I daresay that it was indeed a year that was like a wave.

Year 3:
Dramatic, really extremely dramatic, haha. Ok, firstly, at the start of the third year, me and Haikal organised the SP ACER junior training camp. The camp was successful, and I once again made many new friends. While that happened, old friends also rebonded, and gotten closer. I got to know quite a few awesome people as well.

Escapade 2010 was also a bitch. Though 2009 was more fun, 2010 was also peppy, in a sense that we managed to do our best and achieve what we want. Everyone was happy at the end, albeit tired.

Other from all that, the second semester, consisting of the TF module, had me, Ern, Jonathan, Garry, Chi Kit and Vishinu in one project centre. We became great friends, and made an effort to understand one another. I was guilty at being incompetent during a joint project with Garry, so I would like to thank this chance to thank him, and also to apologize to him.

The final semester was as I said, dramatic, as I fell in love. It was purely one sided, and I blame myself for not exerting enough effort due to cowardice. I gave up in the end, with the understanding that it was fully my fault. Friends like Zack and Suxann was really key people in cheering me up back then. It took a while, but I got back on my feet. And once again, it was an incident that matured me.

I wish to thank all the friends that known me, met me, even had just one single conversation with me throughout these three years. It's a little hard to list all of your names, but trust me, I value every single meetings I had with every single one of you. You've all been a major part of my life. SP will forever remain as the most memorable three years in my life which I will carry with me.

Thank you, and also, though I must say it is regretful, Goodbye.

Updates

2011-03-11T23:01:00.000+08:00

Yo sup, all!

Unofficially graduated from SP FUUUUU!~

My era in MDC is officially over, and I'm now just waiting for results for my final semester. And the graduation ceremony.

Other from working at Kumon, right now, I lounge during my free time (which I have a lot of), because I really have nothing else to do. Wanted to skate, but it's raining like hell.

I hate this rotting feeling. Like I said, stagnant lifestyle, but even going out costs money now. Transport fares are expensive! Haha, even though I say that, I still go help out with ACER roadshows.

It's been lonely too. But there's nothing to do that doesn't cost money. RAWR.

Entertain me, folks!

Fake? Or Real?

2011-02-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

I guess that sometimes, certain people can be too much of a bastards in our eyes, but they might not be really that way. Let's say, me. I indirectly acted in a way today that showed that I don't trust my friends, although that wasn't my intention. My intention was just that I didn't like what they were doing. There's a thin line, but people often don't see it there.

Another example of misunderstandings. You talk this person A, and he replies you in monotone or weirdly, or even no response. You, according to common sense, assumes he has attitude problems. Ever occur to you he might be shy, or unconfident of himself? Or that he doesn't know what to say, or how to reply? Nope, we assume the worse case scenarios. He/She has an attitude problem. Even I do it. Guilty party Number 1. *Raises hand*

Things like this happen in society everyday. To me, it happens a lot. For example, I don't talk much during work, not during Japanese lessons. While MAYBE (not sure) my colleagues/classmates might think that I have issues, the simple answer to it is that I have nothing to say to them. I don't know how to react when they try to socialise. It seems rude, but basically, I am just not confident of myself. I have nothing to bring out to them anyway.

Sometimes, when we say that people are "fake", let's think. Maybe, they are trying to make a new "real". Criticizing may bring them down. Not everyone's as mentally strong as you, you know. They try to make a new image because you (in other words, we) don't accept them for who they are naturally.

Maybe, just maybe, we should be forgiving.

Sorry.

Hi

2011-02-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year! Like Chi Kit said, hope all your angpows are the same size as me! :]

This is the suckiest CNY I ever had. The others can almost also be put into comparison.

That aside, I have this nagging feeling recently.

My chest feels empty all of a sudden. It feels like something is missing. I don't know what the hell is.

OK, maybe deep down, I do, but on the surface, I have no idea what is causing this emptiness. I hope I can find out when I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

I need to fill it up after all.

Despair of loss

2011-01-14T23:25:00.001+08:00

Times when you realise you're close to losing something close to you are really the times your emotional strength is put to the test.

The worse is when nothing can be done about it. The loss is determined. Waiting for it and hoping it won't come soon. Standing there sadly, watching, holding back the tears. Sadness enveloping the surroundings. It sucks to know you're going to lose something close to you. The pain, the heart's sudden clouding. The powerlessness.

I'm not strong. Every human is weak. It's because we have companionship. Friends. Family. We have those to get through. To become stronger. When you might lose one of them... how would you feel? I'm especially weak. I don't want to lose anything. I'm greedy, aren't I?

Please, God, grant me that little wish.

Seems like my CNY this year might not be so good at all...

:O

2011-01-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

Well, 2011's been nothing less than tiring!

A new year may represent new hopes and dreams, but to be honest, most people's routines don't change much. Take me for example. I still clock in at 9am every morning to MDC and draw my F1 designs with Garry everyday. Geez, talk about unchanging.

Can something exciting happen already? Like MDC catch fire or something (JUST A VALID EXAMPLE).

Open House and Spinnovex was so amazing. The MDC bros all got booths. Me and Garry had to tend to the Solid Dispenser and a Gap Clearing Wheelchair. 9 hours of standing up do explaining per day. SIMPLY AMAZING.

But I gotta admit, the FYPs of other people were awesome. Rapid DIY Transporters, simulators left and right and amazing R/C helicopters. It was a great Open House. Though I wish I had more time to take bus tours to disturb my ACER buddies.

Aftermath was a bitch though. Due to too much popcorn and cotton candy, I got this annoying ulcer which caused me so much trouble. I couldn't open up my mouth fully, chew down completely, and it hurts to boot. Till now, it still isn't fully recovered. To add to the pain, sore throat followed. You could imagine the pain now.

2011 had a lot of burdens that were carried over from 2010 too. There are just... things that haunt us wherever we go. I hope I can get it over with.

Ciao, folks. ;]

New Year, new dreams, new hopes, new beginning, new me

2011-01-01T19:26:00.002+08:00

Somehow, the New Year came by with a bang! (since there were fireworks at Vivo where we were). Seriously, we caused a commotion, haha. The party streamers sure were sticky!

Happy 19th birthday, Haikal!

We had party streamers, a small cake (which I got smashed at!) and fireworks. Sitting around, chatting, sleeping at the streets. Haha, this is New Year 2011.

Now then, the new year is here! Resolutions to be made, a whole new year to look forward to.

I finally managed to move on, everything faded like the fireworks. Sorry for worrying all of you for the past year.

My NY resolutions:

1) To skate more and more
Like Haikal would say, if sports were to be your hobby, you can be healthy while enjoying it. I agree. I recently really got hooked on to inlining again. For some reason, the passion is more than before. Maybe it's cos I got a bro who's progressing even further than me though he learnt it two years later than me. Nonetheless, I'm going to skate more!

2) Lose more weight
This is a yearly resolution for me, haha. I managed to lose some weight compared to last year, due to lack of time to eat, which is a bad way of losing weight. I should start to lose weight healthily. Skating more is a plan. Maybe gym? I'll have to see how it goes~ Anyway, NS is coming soon. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

3) To make as many people laugh and smile as possible
I enjoy it when people are laughing or smiling because I did something. It always feels like a great achievement when I raise people's spirits, even if it is for a short moment. I want to make the people around me happy. This is a tough task, but the fact is that anyone can do it, and I might as well be that "anyone".

4) To not neglect friends
Sometimes, I realise that I accidentally isolate certain friends when I stick to another clique too much. Big no no. Every friend is important. I will treasure every single one of them, as I know some of them treasure me too.

5) To learn how to cook healthy, exotic, cost effective dishes.
I want to be in the food industry. No secret. I need to start learning how to cook healthily, but cost effective. The main focus is to make the food still delicious after all that.

6) Not to annoy anyone
I realise I can really annoy people sometimes. Time to stop that!

7) To be less sensitive.
I recently got wind of the fact that I can be sensitive. I really do need to get that part of me into shape. I get affected by trivial matters, and I can really get upset due to it. Time to stop that~

8) To save up more money and not spend it quickly
I realise that it's not that I cannot save up money. I can do it, but I can also spend it pretty fast. I'm an adult now, and I should value money. With that said, I've got to limit my expenditures! Eat cheaper outside, and don't give excuses to spend!

Well, can I live up to my own expectations? Let's try.

Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!! Hope you all have a great 2011!

P.S.: I realised that my birthday this year will be 11/11/11, ahahahahaha...

Year end post!

2010-12-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

I'm early, but what the heck. I'm gonna be outside tomorrow till it goes to 2011, so let's go with the flow and post now!

2010 had been a heck of a year. I had my fair shares of laughter and smiles. Many happy things occured. I met a lot of new friends, so close we could become family. I realised how the people around me care so much about me. I realised that family can be so warm. I revisited several old hobbies. I changed for the better.

But similarly, in contrast to bright sides, there are dark sides as well.

I also had my fair share of tears and frowns. I lost a family member. I lost a few friends, and... a few things happened.

May the next year be a better one, folks. From me, to you. :)

See you in the Year 2011!

Moving on

2010-12-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

It's never easy.

After all, I'm an idiot who is so stubborn I can persevere on something for 8 long years, so yeah, it doesn't make things any easier for me.

During the past two days, I've done my fair share of thinking, pondering and gone through my share of depression. Every friend who saw me in that state had tried to cheer me up, give me advice, and told me to go forward. Seriously, I'm thankful to all of them. If not for all of you, I would have had to go through this alone. These past three days with all of them, shopping, skating and being reckless, chatting and hanging out... it helped me go through with it.

It's times like this, I realise how mentally weak I can be. And how useless I can be without my friends around. Like a certain someone said, I can be "socially deprived".

"Don't stay at your current state, move on.", "Time heals all wounds.", "Nobody said it would be easy to move on, but you have to do it eventually." etc. I've heard these lines so often this few days that they seem cliche. Seriously, it's like listening to broken records.

But nobody said I wasn't listening, or heeding the advices.

I'm going to try. Nobody said it was easy. I still have a pounding feeling in my chest whenever I think about it. I don't want to let myself remain like this. Stagnant, useless and clingy.

I'm moving on.

My feelings were real. I was being serious. But I will respect your decision.

Let's just be friends.

Torn

2010-12-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

I am serious about it. But the other party obviously didn't see the matter in my way. It tore me apart.

Crying won't solve any problems. The best and only thing tears can do is to clean the dirt in your eyes.

Right now, I feel like I want to fall apart, just yell and cry and do whatever. Knives are poking at my heart every second I remember those words.

Call me emo/sensitive/conclusion jumper/pessimist or whatever you guys want to call me. The verdict has been cast.

I once again know how heartbreak can feel like.

Everyone gave me encouragement. I want to continue, but more and more, my target is travelling further and further.

I've been told not to mind any distances I distinct between the both of us, yet I was too late to overcome those emotions, and I was too hesitant, too cowardly and too indecisive. And worse of all, I make excuses for myself.

I can only blame myself for the tears falling from my eyes...

For my readers' benefit...

2010-12-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

Yes folks, I'm still very much alive.... And boy, do I have tales to tell.

My last post revolves about my JLPTN4. Thanks for everyone who wished me good luck. I think I did fairly well.

F1 Simulator project. This project is like a pet project between me and my good bro, Garry. The project was going along fine (notice I didn't say 'well', or 'over the top'). JUST FINE. Till we noticed one thing. We had five supervisors to satisfy, each with different sets of ideas running through their heads.

So, how do you please 5 people?

I'm no pro at it, but Garry's been a real great partner. I'm sorry that I couldn't do much even at my best. Even now, when I see any of my 5 higher-ups, I roll my eyes and start to facepalm.

Sometimes, even tactical facepalms just can't do the job anymore

Anyway, like Jonathan say, it's live and let live. We gotta do what we gotta do, so let's go for it, and do my best.

Next up, is Cheryn's chalet.

I've been practising my skatiing for Pasir Ris Park (PSP), for the ground there is a bitch with its humps, slopes and long distances. But me and Haikal?

WE CONQUERED IT.

OMG, it felt great to urban skate the whole PSP. I never felt so much adrenaline pump through my body before. The thing about skating is this. The thrill of always going to fall down, but never falling down, feels great. It's just like reverse bungee, or roller coasters, but on a much smaller scale.

Oh yeah, I'd like to ride THIS THING one day!

Other from that, we relaxed at a breakwater, talking, napping, and listening to music. It felt really great. But like I always said, surrounded by great friends whom are like family, is always the best sensation ever. It doesn't matter where you are, or when.

You've really got to kill me to call me NOT to love this crew!

Other funny stuffs include Heng Khit's drunken stupor, but that's a story for another time!

My next target to conquer with my boots after PSP, is ECP! Hopefully, I shall be alive next time to tell the tale!

Now's time for some sleep. =)

JLPTN4

2010-12-04T18:31:00.002+08:00

JLPTN4 is tomorrow morning. Wish me luck.

I really hope I can hit my minimum target! =)

Good luck to all of you taking MSTs!

Wrathful

2010-12-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

I feel recently that my level to handle stress has been at a low. I get angry easily.

Work:
MDC has been okay at the start, but with the F1 project underway... me and Garry has been coughing blood. Working out ergonomics of car and sitting positions makes me really appreciate car-makers out there. They're good at their jobs, and whenever I sit in a car next time, I will definitely thank them for all their hard work. It doesn't help that I have an unfriendly supervisor who picks on me and my teammates everyday. His presence just purely pisses me off.

Health:
I haven't been in good health lately. Caught a flu, and accidentally spread it to Garry. Sorry about that, bro. In addition to that, my body's been really heaty lately. Due to my part time job, I've also been skipping dinners. Don't tell me it's unhealthy. I know, but time is not on my side. Walked through the rain a couple of times too, due to the bad weather.

Only healthy thing I've been doing is skating. Whenever I feel like I am in a bad mood, I power skate because the adrenaline of going fast and fighting the danger of falling down and injuring myself seriously takes things off my mind.

Feelings:
Recently, I've got this thing for this girl. I don't know why. I fell in love with her at first sight.

Guys, you might think this is tiresome, so ignore this part if you don't like to read it.

Around her, I get a little shy, lose appetite, stutter and get into accidents. I miss her on days I don't see her. People around me make fun of me and her, but I don't mind.

I feel like she is very important to me. I've been given advice and help, but to be honest, I blame myself for being a natural coward. I want to make her happy.

I'm afraid that we might not even end up friends if she were to know my feelings for her. It wouldn't just affect me. It would affect all the friends around us. And I'm scared.

That fears gives me stress, which makes me angrier at myself for not being able to arrive at solutions...

I need some off time.

Skating E>

2010-11-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

An old sport I had once indulged, enjoy and immersed myself in 2 years ago, skating is back within my list of hobbies. An act of balancing yourself and moving on wheels, skating teaches everyone valuable and simple lessons in everyday life: to pick up yourself after you fall, and move forward again.

My boots are a delicious pair of Seba High Deluxe. Want it? I saved up really hard for it back then two years ago. Letting them collect dust was a heart-wrecking decision, even to me now.

Feels good after seasoning it, haha, but that's just expensive boots for you. I sorta permanently lent my old Rollerblade boots to Haikal, and he's like my skating mate now.

Every Saturday and Sunday, you will now probably see a certain familiar horizontally inclined guy gliding around Choa Chu Kang/Yew Tee. I'm having weekend sessions with Haikal, and other skating pals include Suxann, Heng Khit and Hui Qi. Our awesome eastsider, Ernthechamp, graciously cycled all the way from Tampines to Choa Chu Kang. Ern, we still think you are FTW.

The enthusiasm I had 2 years ago is back, baby. Getting the dust off my boots were a pain at first, but after getting used to moving with skates again, I just can't wait to put them on everyday and become even better on them. Recovering the turning tricks, Cross-Over and Parallel Turn was first. Now, I'm still trying to perfect T-Braking, and maybe eventually the amazing skill of skating backwards and basic slalom tricks (slides are just not my thing).

Eventually, I just really hope that more friends will join us with our weekend skating sessions. I'm just going to chiong all I can. I don't mind falling down anymore because the first thing I did when I went back to skating was balance and the ability to break my fall. =)

I'm going to make myself better on wheels! It's now a passion and hobby, much like Yu-Gi-Oh!, but cheaper and fitter. Guys, let's move! =D

Escapade~

2010-11-23T00:07:00.000+08:00

It's like more than one weeks since the awesome event started and ended, and in other words, yes, I am freaking slow. So sue me if you will. :)

Escapade 2010. It was a day I've been looking forward to back then. Escapade 2009 was an event full of great memories, with us making new friends back then, who had formed unbreakable bonds with us right now. I will not deny that I expect that this year's Escapade was expected to be greater than last year's.

I was in Inspira last year, and this year, I've been chosen to be in Igni, the new monster group. My partner this year is Aaron, who in his own right, is an awesome buddy.

4pm. Everyone gathered at SPCC, eating their dinner. We chatted, joked, took photos, cheered. After that, we got to work. All the 11 and 12 leaders were assigned to entertain the people in the queue, which we did. My ideas then were kinda lame though.

After a very long while, we finally got our monsters. A very rushed dinner happened, then we rushed to see the performance at the fanfare. We got comedians and dancers, which were great, in my opinion. Fanfare ended shortly, and we moved on to KMKU.

KMKU: Knowing Me, Knowing You, is our ice breaker session. We engaged in games, cheers and a "pageant" contest. It went considerably well.

After KMKU, the Igni Monsters were led to "The Temple of Igni", where they took a hippo bus to get answers to riddles to free the Volcano Monster (WE'RE A VOLCANO, FOLKS). Due to misinformation on our OM's part, we leaders were left at the bus stop, where we had toilet breaks and a little rest. My voice started to sound weird already then.

Their hippo bus ride ended, and they alighted to be led to a room where we had to do a FREE IGNI DANCE! (For more info, watch Alvin's video of Try performing that awesome dance). This is a tricky and funny dance meant to be etched within our minds probably for the rest of our lives. O_O

Mission accomplished! Igni was freed! Next was the mountain monster, Inspira's territory! We went into the library and played Snakes and Ladders in life size. It was fun, with me making fun of the people getting forfeits every chance I got. :P

Inspiration obtained, the next stop was to InnoV, the Village of Inno, the sea monster. The Igni monsters were shown performances and new techs made by our lecturers and students. I still like that evil helicopter. It's evilllll.

The last location was Imagi's, the forest monster's territory, at Colours. A band would sing for them under a very nice atmosphere, and the monsters were given quizzes in which they would win free movie tickets.

Now, all 4 hallmarks have been visited, the main event of the night comes: The gig! But supper was before that, which was great. I loved the food. <3

Now, the gig. This is where monsters and leaders alike let wild their passions by dancing and shaking their booties. Us ACERs show sides of ourselves that most others have probably never thought of seeing in our everyday life. It was fun last year, and still is fun this year. :)

The gig ended, and we went to the final event, the Sunrise Surprise. Orchestrated by SMA, the seagoers showed us how to party all the way into the morning. The event was ended by dodgeball, in which everybody was to take a ball home, with their thoughts written on permanent marker on the balls. Breakfast came after that event, and we all went home to our bed, who sworn to serve us well. :)

Escapade this year was great, ACERs! It's my last event in SP, so yeah, I'm a little sad about it. But the bonds and friendship accumulated will definitely never be forgotten. ACERs, rock on! :D

Super sweet 19th~

2010-11-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

The day started out like any other, but ended up unlike any other day I've ever experienced before.

11/11/2010 is the best day of my life for the past 19 years. Thanks, everyone who celebrated for me. ACERs, thanks for the celebration! It felt strange to have 50+ people singing for you, but still. :)

To the non-ACER friends, thanks for the gifts and wishes! I deeply appreciate ALL of it!

This is the best birthday of my life! :D

Some just for fun statistics of the day!

First person this year to wish me on the day itself: Pey Ling
Final person this year to wish me on the day itself: Sarah (Joy 6)

Best gift: Headphones from my mother and sisters!
Worse gift: Steve's photograph
Funniest gift: Zack's super trophy

FYI Fact: First surprise birthday celebration in my life

I'll post up pictures when Gibs uploads them! :) But for now, the gifts of 2010! And my "lucky noodles" haha!

My mother's mee sua? THE BEST.

My beautiful cake!

Main gifts this year! :D

Thanks a lot, folks! I love you all! :D

Friends

2010-11-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

It's always always cool to hang out with friends. No matter for what, when it is, and who it is.

Yesterday, 10 of us trudged down The Cathay to watch The Social Network. The movie taught me how friends can turn into enemies, and how words cannot be taken back. Meaningful. The main character ended up rich and famous, but apparently friendless. Like his lawyer said, "he's not an asshole, but he's trying too hard to be one".

Popeyes was awesome, but the chicken was small! We chatted, laughed, the usual. I enjoy company with all of them, chatting about random stuff out of nowhere.

Self-cannibalism FTW. =P

Outings are one thing, but the friends you have in class with you? They're also awesome, because they literally share hardship with you. I can't help but feel awesome with friends at MDC, despite working. It is a problem when we get mental blocks, though. Engineers need creativity.

And ACER trainings. I love em. Hanging out with everyone at night, joking around and stuff. After that, it's a huge group taking train home together. Who doesn't love that sort of company?

Work. I'm getting along with the colleagues. KY's still an asshole, but he's an awesome asshole LOL. Sounds wrong, but I'm lazy to change it, so I won't.

Escapade is coming, yo. Can't wait. =) I need sleep. I'm getting way too exhausted.

A Brief idea...?

2010-10-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

This few days past, I've been cooking a few different recipes. I really do enjoy cooking. I've been in love with it ever since I touched the stove while I was 11.

The wonders you can make with ingredients are limitless. To me, food is an art form. But of course, they must be healthy, delicious, satisfying. I've always liked to study up on recipes, be able to cook more dishes.

Today my mother told me something interesting, as an advice.

"Why don't you go into the food industry if you like it so much?"

I pondered about it. CK gave me the same advice when we chatted and I said I liked cooking a lot.

I supposed I was afraid, to mix pleasure with work. Cooking, in the industry meant that your service and skills need to be speedy and precise. And, in the food industry, there is no room for mistake, or it'll be waste of time, skills and resources if the customer rejects your food. Most importantly, your reputation will go kaput.

But to end without trying is pathetic. Could this be the beginning of my dream? The prospects are exciting... I'll do my best and see how it goes!

Takers

2010-10-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

Since I've got two free Cathay movie vouchers back then, a gang of us went to The Cathay to watch a movie. Wanted to watch comedy flicks, but they were all out of seats, so we had no choice but to take what was available. We watched "Takers".

This movie is basically about a bunch of robbers who got saboed by their old brother who felt betrayed as he was caught and sent to prison with his girlfriend snatched away by his bro. The ending was non-conclusive, so I felt like it was a waste of 2 hours of my time. Good thing it was free. It was a bullshit movie.

What's a point of a story if you don't give it a conclusion? At least you might wanna give it an exciting cliffhanger. But it basically sucked in the end lol.

2/10. If I could, I would throw rotten tomatoes at the screen.

Dreams (2)/Masks and Friendships/Matters of the heart

2010-10-25T00:39:00.002+08:00

Exhausted, but I shall wait till my hair is dry before hitting the sack.

This few days, as "research", I asked around people about dreams, and if they had them. Everybody gave me the same advice. To slowly search, as I still had 2 1/2 years to think out my options. But it feels like I'm missing an organ. Because having a dream leads to having ambitions, while ambitions leads to action. Action ensures that you will one day build your own road.

I haven't even got the tar ready. How do I build it up, my road to the future?

I will go on looking, for it, so that I can go on. Everyday I am living in now seems so meaningless without a goal. I feel like a dead man inside.

I need to be revived.

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You know that you are pretty much the talk of the town when you just say some random stuffs about person A, and person B assumes you are talking about him/her.

For eg, on FB, yesterday, a certain someone really really pissed me off. Shall not mention names here. Don't worry, it's not any ACER. It's... a certain someone else.

So I wrote on FB as my profile message: "Don't assume. You don't know me at all."

Verena replied, "i love how word spread so fast, it is really amusing to me. hahahhahahha"

I'll tell you now I have no idea what she's talking about. Guilty conscience much? It's natural for people to talk about people behind their backs. I'd be lying if I say I am neither curious nor hurt, but it happens to everyone. I'm used to the talking behind another party's back, but I'll never get used to the hurt. I guess I might have a delicate heart.

Trying too hard to be a friend can be a bad thing sometimes too. I have that weakness, from what some had told me.

But it's like I said. Don't assume. I've been wearing a mask because if I don't, I might not be accepted by the general public. Very little people has had the privilege to see the face behind the mask. Same goes for everybody, doesn't it. Everyone wears a mask for self preservation.

I want to be honest to myself for once you know, just to see if friendship can withstand truth. But from what I know, friendship is like glass. It breaks easily unless both parties treat it with delicate care. Truth is tough. That's how it is.

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So that's how screwed up my life is right now. A guy who has no dreams and goals to speak of and has social stress to deal with. Let's comfort myself by telling myself it could be worse.

Can I be true to myself and be accepted?

Dreams?

2010-10-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

I'm nearing graduation from Polytechnic in one measly semester. 2 1/2 years sure have passed by fast. All the great friends and memories and the not so good ones, will always be a valuable part in my heart. My World, My SP. =)

So what do I want to do after Poly?

No, I'm not talking about NS. I'm talking even further ahead, into a future I still have yet to explore. What do I want to do? What do I want to advance in? What exactly are my dreams?

Which brings us to the subject of dreams.

I've seen Jonathan and Garry, both deciding on their paths for the future, and strive for me. Compared to them I guess I'm pathetic. Garry's decided to embark on his path to designing, Jonathan's got a dream to excel in psychology. Even Kai Yang, has a future of teaching IT and Japanese in the future. Compared to them, I have no prospects.

Pathetic.

You know, for dreams, we sure have to be realistic about them. Dreams and realism are opposites, but the irony is that we have to dream realistically. For example, I can't say that I want to be a multi-billionaire and be surrounded by beautiful woman by the age of 20. That's pure unrealistic and near impossible. People need to have dreams which they can invoke by themselves, through the process of hard work, sweat, blood and tears.

So what dream do I have? None. And that's why I say I'm pathetic. I'm sure many agree. I don't know what lies ahead of me in the future, nor have I seen that far. I can't dream big, and therefore I'm pathetic. Successful people has to dream big.

Engineering is a skill I picked up to ensure my survival. It's to make sure I can at least be able to support myself in the future. But engineering is not what I want. It's supposed to be my last resort. What do I want? Honestly, truthfully, I need to touch my heart and ask myself.

"I don't know."

Various people often told me before, "You sure don't know about a lot of things, do you?" I'm ashamed of that part of me, but it is true. I really don't know a lot. Seriously, what have I being doing for my past 19 fucking years? I'm disappointed. I don't even know my dream. I don't even have that something that everybody has within of them.

When we're were young, innocent, naive, even, we can think up of "dreams" everyday.

"I want to be a firefighter! A policeman! An illegal bookie!" (Ok wait a minute, that last one was a wee off, but...)

We were so full of hope, wanting to embrace the world. Now as 20 draws near in another year, I realise that as we grow up, not all those dreams can be fulfilled. Like I said, we are people who needs to dream realistically. I wish I can go back to those days, where I can rant about what I want to be in the future.

I wish.

Hey, me, give me a good dream. :')

School starts

2010-10-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

Being back to school is always sudden. But a case of semester blues hits me while I was in the lab of my TF project. And also, being a Monday sucks again.

Guess things can't be helped. Seeing some classmates obviously bring back pleasant memories. Friends are always cool. =)

This is going to be one hell of a semester. Everybody in my sector will have to work from 9am-6pm everyday, where punctuality is a key part of our marks.. >_<

Now, with school restarting, a key part of what I am looking forward to is Escapade. Inspira 2009 rocked the socks off everything, haha. I am so looking forward to this year's Escapade again.

Hope I can take leave for the training dates. I'm having trouble for that. Bosses, please be easy on meeee...

Time will be packed for me at the time being. Monday: 6pm go home, Tuesday: 10+pm go home, Wednesday: 6pm go home, Thursday: 10+pm go home, Friday: 10+pm go home, Saturday: Work during morning/Escapade training/Escapade and Sunday: Japanese class at Ikoma in the morning.

Where's leisure gone to, lol?

Countdown of Despair

2010-10-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

I anticipate. I fear. I despair.

Exam results will be out, 11:30am today. 10 hours plus to go.

Please let my SC and PLC go well. >< I do not wish to repeat module.

This is what post-exam is like. The fear can't be put into words. Butterflies in my stomach now.

Good luck, everyone.

Summary

2010-10-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

Oh boy, past few days had been so out of the world. Time passes by fast, no? 2nd week of the holidays are gone just like that. Monday had been the only day I really did nothing. Tuesday to today? I've been going out everyday.

Tuesday was my first day of work. Meeting up with Leslie and KY was awesome. Sup bros, long time no see. KY adapted a rock star hairstyle, which he'll need to dye back to black soon for our enlistment photo. First day of work was cool, with my job training going well. So yeah, I'm an assistant for Kumon now. Don't try to sabotage me by visiting my workplace! Dinner with them was cool stuff. We had a lot to say. I participated in a shuttle run training to the bus stop with Leslie after such a reunion. Hooray.

So... Wednesday was my last class for Japanese Intermediate! I got my certificate for completing the course, hehe. It's a little sad that my final lesson at Intermediate couldn't be under my current Sensei, who is moving back to Japan. So now, I'm moving to Sunday classes, morning. It's taken up by my former Sensei, so adapting shouldn't be a problem. =)

Thursday, I went to Felix's house's gym. Freaking awesome, training in an empty gym, with an empty swimming pool to use after that. Just that it had to rain. :\ So I got into the pool for like... 5 minutes? Bullshit. I'll ask Fel if I can go again next week.

Today today today... me, Zack and Haikal went to Big Splash in Chinese Garden. Being to the pool always is fun, but it spent a lot of our energies. Well, this is the good thing about youth. It's something you need to waste away. Asked a few people to go before, but all were busy and saying about how they don't want to show off their fats, so well, the three of us decided to go by ourselves. Who says you can't have fun with just 3? Bullshit! We had tons of fun. Such is the awesomeness of brotherhood. Who cares about ignored messages and refusal to participate. It's because it's all guys that we can talk about stuffs we usually don't say outside.

Tomorrow will be a day dedicated to card games. I should sleep more. Yes I should. =) I need to keep up the energy!

I'm so looking forward to the 9th Oct. ACERs! You guys should look forward to that day too!

Lalala~

2010-09-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

WHOA! This blog was almost on the verge of dying. Good thing I saved it (given the fact I almost killed it myself). For the very loyal few who had been following, sorry! I had been too lazy, I guess. There'll be no rewards nor reimbursement though.

Today, I shall talk about exams.

Mine had been over two weeks ago, but in my opinion, the nerve wrecking moment is when it's over. You heard me, folks.

Pre-exam! This is the period where those who had since long been prepared will strut confidently, already familiar with everything. It is also the period in which those who are NOT prepared will pull out their hairs trying to figure out the solution to the certain problem. (Curse the select few lecturers who do not give solutions). During this time, past-year papers are examined and analysed, while done with much care and desperation.

During the exams itself, when a familiar question pops up, the first thing everybody feels is confidence. The opposite happens when a not so familiar question pop up too. Those who are really afraid will then attempt to calculate how many marks they are able to get, hoping for a mere pass even with the last minute cramming they had staked their lives on.

And now, post-exam. At first, due to the exams done, you'll have fun for a bit. But that's only the beginning.

Anxiety. Nerves. Stress. Fear. Those emotions run through everybody as the fateful day approaches. Some will wonder: "Will I get an 'A/B'?", while others wonder: "Will I pass?". Truly, the experience of post-exam stress can push a person to their most desperate, because of one simple reason.

"What matters is the result." - Lelouch from Code Geass.

Yes, that is the reason. Even if the exams have ended, everyone wants to, but is afraid to know how well/badly they had done. I feel a lot that way too.

And so, here I sit, waiting for the 4th October to approach me, slowly but steadily.

Lalala~

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Ever since the start of the holidays, my first week had been dedicated to good old ACERs. The Parents' Forum event was a success. For me, anyway. I just love the parents. They're really awesome, patient, and kind with us.

And I got a job, thanks to my old friend, KY. I'll be working as a receptionist at Kumon, so essentially, it's the same as being an ACER, but I get paid.

I actually should be in my Japanese class tomorrow evening, but I'm postponing it in favour of my job training. :\ Even though it's my Tuesday's teacher's last lesson with this current class. Sumimasen, Sensei. Shigoto desu kara... I know she might have wanted to give me the Ikoma cert herself, but I have no choice but to deny her that pleasure... I'll be taking the promotion test on Wednesday.

Things have quieten down lately. It's about to get busy again. I'll be back to update, so be here to read up! ;)

Updates

2010-08-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

It's the 7th month in the Lunar Calender now. Hungry Ghost Festival. Well, I bet I could be hungrier than them, but.. I'm not going to take my chances. :) The only ghost I think which have been possessing me is the Ghost of Procrastination and the Ghost of Laziness. Can someone exorcise them for me?

Been going home really late recently, although this is a period in which I am NOT supposed to go home late. I, for the first time, actually missed the last train yesterday. I swear, teens like us have got to take note of the time. Anyway, no more outings for now till assignments/exams revisions are finished.

Went to eat sushi with Haikal and the others yesterday. Haikal invited everybody, and for the first time, I feel glad that I wasn't the one who had to do the invitations. Sorry I had to push the task to you, Haikal. But I got to admit that he has way much more success than me. He actually manage to get the digits of people to 10.

Zack, CK and Cheryn came later because of certain reasons. So the the other 7 of us ate at Hei Sushi for a 90 minute buffet. Don't have their Udon. I greatly recommend you do not eat it.

Culprits of the night: Cheryn, me, Sen Rong, me, Zack, me, Heng Khit, me, Zainol, me, Suxann, me, Ern, me, Haikal and me

And for the first time, we had Suxann with us for an outing! Welcome to the ACER clique. :)

It's been awhile since I chionged in an arcade. Table Hockey was as awesome as I remember it, but smaller. I vaguely remember that Jurong East's arcade used to have a hugeass table for the game when I was but a wee lad. We won a lot of coupons (thanks to Suxann's Spongebob jumping, Haikal, Heng Khit and my hammer the dog). Ern won all of us at Daytona racing.

And we traded it for a- wait for it- an EYEBALL.

Haikal took home the prize. When we left the arcade, we were like WTF WE MISSED THE LAST TRAIN. Hailed a cab with Heng Khit and Suxann, and we made our way to Yew Tee, back to our homes.

Got to say, this is one of the most fun outing I've been to in quite a while. Maybe it's because I am not the one organising it. I always get pang sehed. ALWAYS.

Well, hope for the next awesome outing, maybe after the exams! :)

Fun times, sad times

2010-08-12T02:12:00.001+08:00

Tuesday was what I could usually call a blast. Especially when it's the first official day of the school holidays (since Monday was a public holiday). The ACER gang gathered at Farrer Park and we went to eat. Essentially it was Bachelor's night out, haha. Haikal, Heng Khit, Zack and I. The 4 Musketeers hung out, had our dinner and went to the arcade.

Been awhile since I played table hockey, I got thrashed by Haikal (albeit narrowly). Ee Seuu came when Zack had to leave, so we hung out and ate yogurt at Yoguru's. Expensive, but it was well worth it because it was damn delicious, and when you eat with friends you hold dear, anything tastes good.

Sat down, chatted about stuff. Haikal 'assaulted' Ee Seuu, Heng Khit 'assaulted' Ee Seuu, Ee Seuu 'assaulted' Heng Khit and Haikal back (and they lived happily ever after) while I watched. :D Entertaining.

We went home late, despite it being the first day of the Seventh Month. >< Don't learn this from us, kids. :P

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Wednesday: the day of the Northland road show. Lead Suxann, Gregory and Xin Yi there. We did fairly well. We finished distributing the brochures! Woohoo!

Then me and Suxann met up with Heng Khit and Cheryn for dinner at Bugis for steamboat, eating yogurt (again) while waiting for them. I was pang sehed (again) by people whom I shall not name for their privacy. Suxann's bf came along, and he's a great guy. Turn out we read the same mangas and stuff.

When we decided to go home, we found out that 4 of us live in Yew Tee. Quite a pleasant surprise. Poor Cheryn had to leave at Gombak. :P

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Sorry I haven't been updating. A lot of stuff cropped up and I had to deal with them for the past three weeks. For those reading, thanks!

Rejection: Opinions?

2010-07-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hi, welcome to Monday. Welcome to hell.

For most of us, Monday spells out back-to-school/work. And as a result, we all get the thing known as Monday blues. Suck it up. You'll be enduring it till you are at least 65.

Despite promises to myself, I have yet to think up of a concept for my Digital Imaging assignment. I believe that I'll have to find something really interesting to photograph to get good grades. Any good ideas, anyone?

The other day, Zack had this really interesting Facebook profile message, which is common, but quite true. "The most hated word of the dictionary: no".

I am inclined to agree to that statement. The word "no" often is linked to rejection, or turning down of requests. I myself have been hurt countless times by this very word, and might have hurt countless people by this very word as well.

Thing is, rejection is never sweet. No matter how much you "get used" to it, it's always painful, bitter and heartbreaking. My past jobs had been 1) A door-to-door surveyor 2) SIM card salesman. All these job, especially the surveyor one, had involved me getting brutally rejected, turned down and door slammed at some point of time. It hurts a lot, but I had to swallow my pride and get my job done.

Case study: I had been commissioned by Organiser to invite people for events. Person A told me "Nope.", Person B doesn't reply, Person C goes "Yes, yes, yes" all the way and "No" at the last minute.

If this happens, how would you feel? I felt really hurt. At least, try to consider my feelings. I had looked forward to seeing everyone, hope was given, but in the end, disappointment awaits.

And that is why I decide not to help to be someone who gives out invitations. From now on, I shall quietly wait for invitations. At least I won't get hurt.

I myself had been guilty for the same sin, and I blame myself for disappointing people. I now know how they feel. >_<

P.S.: I am not blaming anybody in particular. It's because I treat you people as REALLY REALLY GREAT friends that I felt so disappointed. :/ Sorry if it accidentally offends you. I can be dense sometimes.

My two cents worth of comments. Gonna go sleep early. Lab test tomorrow.

Ciao, folks. :]

R.I.P. ; Noob NTSS

2010-07-12T23:56:00.001+08:00

Today, on my way to school in the morning, a very ghastly scene greeted me. A cat, with its brains busted out of its skull, and had its carcass dragged by unknown forces, laid on the tar road while I was walking to the bus stop. Its blood surrounded a huge portion of the road.

I am no Ee Seuu or Nadiah, but hey, I think that basic love for animals should at least be there. This is a case of murder. No, don't tell me that as long as it is not human, the driver IS guilty.

This is clearly a case of reckless driving and manslaughter (catslaughter, meow?). The driver who did it is worse than a beast. Because he clearly didn't feel remorse. He just wants to shirk responsibility.

The least he could have done was call a hotline and gotten someone to give the cat a peaceful cremation/burial. But no... he had to leave it there, for OTHER DRIVERS to run their cars through the carcass and let it be dragged again and again across the road. Even a cat deserves respect people.

For all we know, the cat might have been saved if the driver took action. He didn't and a life departed us all. What a heartless driver.

R.I.P., cat. May God bless your soul.

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And as expected, another incident concerning my secondary school surfaced on STOMP.

For more info: Teacher in class, yet student whacks and whacks classmate's head with broomstick

I've always hated New Town. Through my four years in there, I'm like the boy in the picture who gets hit by the broomsticks. It's bullies like those that never give some of us a peaceful way to live our lives.

My old school's discipline has never been top notch. In a place like that, some people could never be able to live through a nice four years with plenty of good memories. That school should be closed down, period.

I wouldn't have put it past myself to survive secondary school if not for a few true friends and kind souls who supported me through the 4 years. Heck, I even contemplated suicide while in Secondary School before (who hasn't? You're lying if you say no.) due to the hardship certain people (who I am tempted to name and disgrace and step on) has inflicted on me.

I will laugh at the person, whom I guess will be publicly caned this week by our ex-discipline master, John Lim. The bullies deserve it.

Like I said, New Town is full of crap. It's 95% bullshit and 5% good things.

Poly is much better. Thank God for the friends I have now. =)

Enough about my thoughts, folks. It's time to get some sleep. Ciao.

God Eater

2010-07-11T22:40:00.001+08:00

Today, I shall do you PSP players a service and recommend a great game to you guys: God Eater.

I've been playing it and really? I'm getting a little hooked to it. I'll ~~blame~~ Ern and Garry for it, haha. They were like popping their eyes out and saying PLAY GOD EATER. Jokes aside, this game is especially fun in multi-player mode with your khakis. So just go play it already. You're already salivating, aren't you?

Like fantasy? Monster Hunter? This is the game for you. I've never touched Monster Hunter (I know! Right?), but this game is all about getting potions and upgrading your weapons, whacking and shooting at giant monsters, so it's also sort of like Power Rangers, just without so much latex and giant robots, and the girls look so much hotter. You know you want it. Say yes.

GOD EATER AWESUMZZZ OPENING THEME

The opening theme and ending theme sung by the Chinese-Tibetan singer, alan, is awesome. I demand you guys to listen to this song, because I said so. Don't want to? Ask me nicely to ask you nicely to watch it

Anytime you guys want to play multi-player with us guys, feel free to ask. I'm having trouble clearing rank 4 cos I'm a noob at this game. ><

Troubles, burdens, worries and... sometimes, a little smile that makes the previous looks dumb. :)

2010-07-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

Talking about troubles and stuff. Week 14 is PLC lab test, Week 16 is PLC common test 2 and GEMs collage submission date. No ideas yet for the GEMs assignment. It's just a major bore to me anyway, that GEMs. -.- PLC mini project and PED PBL... So many assignments. Can I cope? Let's try to do my best. ><

I should set aside next week and chiong for the assignments. Anwar say not meeting for the coming week for YGO, so can set aside more time. Need to prioritize my work too, or it'll really pile up and kill me all at the same time.

So, my self planned schedule for this week:
Monday evening: GEMs assignment
Tue evening: PED?
Wednesday morning - noon: PLC mini-project
Thursday evening: PLC mini-project
Friday evening: A bit of relaxation

Now all I have to do is follow it.

BTW, saw this really funny picture. Feel like I have to share it with you guys.

If you guys don't get it, you're either too innocent, or naive. If you can get it... well, then you're about as evil, or worse than me. xD

Well, I'll do my promised "column writer post" someday. Hopefully it'll be about no procrastinating ahaha.

Ciao.

Thoughts

2010-07-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

Been kinda thinking, thinking and thinking about stuff recently. Ern would probably say : "Why think so much? Make your hair grow whiter only." Can't help it, I guess. It's in the blood.

Monday lessons are... boring. I dunno. Maybe it's because of the fact that, well, it is Monday. Hate my GEMs. It's a waste of time.

Saturday went down to see Mad cosplay as Yui from K-ON. She was awesome. Too bad I forgot to take a picture with her. She looked great.

Been reading blogposts around, and I dunno, I feel like my posts are dull? Haha. People like Garry, is like, wow, always having interesting blogposts. Maybe I should adopt his "column writer" style and write some thoughts of random subjects sometimes. He's pretty awesome when it comes to stuff like that.

I need more colour in my life. Been too dull and too systematic easily. Where is the me of old who would break through that sort of dull process? Geez, I thought I like to make life interesting. Need to find some new stuff to do.

Met up with the YGO gang and played cards with them. It turned sorta crazy, haha, when we win in the most interesting of ways. Unexpected stuff blows people's minds away.

Realise that I've been spamming God Eater on PSP recently. That game is like damn shiok sia haha. Garry and Ern like influence me now become like some junkie.

K la, enough about me. Tell me something about YOU. My chatbox is getting very rusty. Barely anyone's using it.

Ciao. ;)

2/7/2010 Legend of Ip Man outing!

2010-07-03T00:19:00.001+08:00

Basically, we went to watch the movie today at GV Tiong Bahru, Legend of Ip Man. It was an okay movie, cool and all. Culprits of the day? Ern, Steve, Haikal, Zack, Heng Khit, Cheryn and of course, yours truly. =)

^Thanks to Jonathan Soon for taking the picture!

Hung out after the movie playing cards at BK, haha. Played Truth or Dare and we had some funny stuff happened. :P

And wosh! We got this lucky draw card we just decided to go try out for fun. Turns out we actually "accidentally" won a cruise for two on a cruise! Not bad right! Today productive!

^People who tapped this thing out: Zack, Cheryn and me

It was fun, gang. Let's hang out next time again. =)

Ciao, all! ^_^V

Duty: Day 2

2010-07-01T22:28:00.000+08:00

Shagged. The only word that can run through my tired brain right now. I think it's due to my lack of sleep and duty. :/

Second day of duty was fine. Quota barely reached today, but I was disappointed with my own performance because I did better yesterday. Hung out with Ben and his Regent Sec juniors and chatted after duty, then took train with them and went home. Guys at duty, you were awesome. =)

I want to be like Uncle Francis, haha. That confidence, initiative, charisma and speaking skills. I've got a lot to learn from him, and a long way to go before becoming someone like him. ><

CSW presentation today went fine. Partnered with Mon.

Tomorrow got movie outing, but like didn't manage to get much people, because most of them can't make it. Geez, I think I suck at organising outings like this. Good thing got Cheryn to help me... again. She's a great friend, that girl. =] Hope tomorrow's outing goes well. ><

I think I'm going to go to bed... Air-con spoilt. Sian, hope I can fall asleep tonight, my room's super warm... Tomorrow's Friday, finally.

Thanks for being my friends.

2010-06-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, the people you least expect will raise your spirits, with the right intentions, with the best of who they are. It happens. Yesterday, I was in such low spirits that I could just contemplate a thousand ways to torture myself. Then, a few kind souls tried with the best of their intentions said a few things to try cheer me up. And one of them accompanied with for one hour and talked to me to help solve my problems. Sometimes, people like them, just makes me feel a lot better. Thank you, for being my friends.

Whew, today was supposed to be my first day off after school reopens. But I went back to help as an ACER for the SP Buddy Programme for the DPA talk for secondary school students.

Geez, it sure was exhausting, but fun. Got to meet a lot of people, and the guys there helping out? All cool people. =)

I'm helping out again tomorrow! Got LOA, and SP Buddy shirt limited edition. Only me and Haikal have it, and it's not been mass released anymore. I guess having it has its perks. -.- But today hitting quota for number of registrations with Haikal feels awesome haha.

Tomorrow got my stupid CSW telephone skills thingy. Geez, have to weat shirt and tie and leather shoes. Troublesome. ><

Trying to make movie outing on Friday, but not so successful. A lot of people cannot make it. I guess I just always pick the wrong time. :/

Ok guys, so much for updates. Ciao.

Holidays almost all gone...

2010-06-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Well, I have barely 11 hours left to my next class. =X About 7 hours will be dedicated to sleeping. Dang, the holidays really flew by so fast. I didn't even feel like I had enough fun or chilling out for the 2 weeks, except for the chalet/camp.

Maybe school reopen already ask the ACER peeps for movie outings. Keep the bonds strong, peeps!

My last day of holidays have been wasted at home mopping the floors and doing my laundry. FML. I want to do something fun! Something energy spending! And all that. =X

Geez, holiday homework of 2 SC practical reports still not done yet. Time to chiong... eventually. Due on Tuesday.

8am-5pm again. I hate my time-table.... Haizzzz... Wednesday, come quickly! At least got a break, but got the CSW assignment also... Damn... such a rushed term and holiday. 3rd Year really is just flashing by. ><

Cya all at school, people...

Updates for the week :]

2010-06-26T22:29:00.001+08:00

Didn't do much for the week! Except for... these.

Tuesday went to the Robocup Junior Party to look for the Hong Kong participants from Macau. No luck finding them at all. But me, Haikal and Zi Xiang enjoyed the party at the Science Centre though. I feel guilty cos I didn't get to do my job like I should :/

Wednesday was raining like there would be no tomorrow. Was supposed to go to City Hall with Haikal to support the teams, but the rain was so bad the front of my house had high water level. The mud swept out to the driveway and well, a lot of things happened, so we went on Thursday.

Shida and Suxann were on duty. Heng Khit was there too as a crew member, and Sen Rong came along. The few of us sat down, chatted and joked about, before they closed shop and we went for Haagen Dazs ice cream with our one for one coupon. Found out Heng Khit and Suxann also live in Yew Tee, haha! Next time got event got people take train home with me liao. :]

Friday was the day of the goody bag packing job. We (Aaron, Heng Khit, Haikal, Shida, Verena and me) were the "pamphlet team", so we sat down on hard ground and started packing stuff. At the end of the day, we all got sore backs, paper cuts and sore muscles. We barely caught the last trains back home in the end, haha... It was really tiring, but interesting, and the money was good. Best of all is that the 6 of us managed to bond a lot throughout the 12 hours. =)

Jialat, my Japanese class timeslot might be cancelled sia. If cancelled I think worst case scenario I'll take Wednesday night classes. Will be alone... but at least I get my weekends back and use the weekdays fully for work. But best is that it doesn't get cancelled. I've gotten attached to my class of 3 people and 1 teacher.

Ok that is all after a summary. =] School is reopening! >< See you all, folks! It was a good holiday while it lasted.

Oh yeah, today is Heng Khit's birthday! Happy Birthday, man! =)

New Camp?

2010-06-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

ACER Camp 1: Over.

Camp 2 petition is beginning LOL.

Turns out all of us had so much fun the same idea stuck on our heads: To have a second camp. But the assignment of staffs will be different. The camp chief will be different. It's time to pass the torch, folks.

I don't mind. It was one of the most fun thing I attended. So seniors, want it? Discuss about it. Tell Zac or Zack that you're interested in it. Michelle'll know soon.

I'm still coughing like a madman.

Tomorrow Science Centre to attend some stuff for Robocup at 6:30pm. Gosh, I'm nervous about meeting the foreign participants. O_O

I need more rest. My lungs will get infected soon if I don't let it rest more. Been drinking cough syrups. Hope it works.

Ciao all, I have nothing much interesting to update.

SP ACER Junior Training Camp

2010-06-18T19:48:00.000+08:00

3 days, 2 nights. That's the amount of time that passed us in a flash. Yet those days, those memories, are something I will not easily forget. One of my best moments of my final year in SP.

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Day 1
Sen Rong, Haikal, Cheryn, Ee Seuu, Michelle and I met up at IMM, Giant to started to get our supplies. Haikal and I got a little behind time while shopping. Michelle and the two of us then went to SP to collect the supplies, before heading to the chalet, aloha Changi Yacht Club B, itself.

Once there, we settled into full work mode. Met Heng Khit, Aaron, Verena and Denise there. I've been "elected" Camp Chief and Haikal is Vice Camp Chief.

The walk to dinner was awesome. We made fun of Ee Seuu on the way, since she's scared of the dark and all, but I immediately regretted it when Cheryn and her chased me down the route just to scream into my ears. >< A scrumptious dinner of "cheesy meat patty", and our energy levels were up enough for more work.

Cheryn and Sen Rong helped out a lot with the logistic matters, while Gibson took photographs, and the rest of us prepared the water bombs. 1am reached faster than we thought, and we went to sleep.

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Day 2
Waking up at 6am plus for breakfast was well, tiring. But we, as the seniors, have got jobs to do. We took Bus 29 to Tampines, and I had a rushed breakfast of McDonalds. Some of the juniors arrived fairly early, so i had to head back fast to help prepare the stuff. Haikal, Zhi Yong, Garry, Chi Kit and Denise went back early with me and we emptied the living room.

The juniors were awesome people. Some were enthusiastic, some were uncooperative, some were really friendly, but most importantly, they're lovable all the same. We tried to get to know one another and started on a series of team building games and team competitions.

Along the team competition games at the beach, all the facilitators went on me and threw me into the ocean. Sand got into my pants and- I'll leave out specific details. Verena openly proclaimed she planned it one day before with everyone. Evil of you, girl.

Nightfall. Everyone worked together just to set up the BBQ. It was heartwarming to see everyone work together for a common goal.

Some of the juniors were integral to have really helped out a lot in cooking the food. I was saboed again when Heng Khit, Verena and Haikal spartaed me and started to whip cream me. >< Verena, you really are evil. You should be glad your interesting-ness makes up for that evil in my book. Cos I really can't hate interesting people. The end scene resulted in me looking like I was raped by multiple assailants and- Once again, I shall leave out the specific details. I managed to gain a new black SP shirt in the process, so I shall cease complaining.

One moot point of the second day was how many "look-alikes" of the seniors suddenly sprouted out. There was a girl who looked like Ynex, Suzanne, who everyone swears is the good twin of Verena and some others. Of course, the seniors and juniors kept on mentioning about how Ern and I look exactly the same, much to our chagrin, lol. Feh.

The juniors then left, without staying for group photos. Geez, you could've waited for a littler while more, guys.

The girls all left later at night, and the guys and Michelle started to chat till 2am in the morning. We chatted about girls, careers, our future, marriage... Things that will matter a lot to us in a few years after graduation
and NS. The super heaty deep fried food I had is integral to my cough and headache today, since they were, well, super heaty.

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Day 3

We checked out in the morning. Steve's alarm was ironically funny, since it woke everyone up; except for him. I had a cracking headache and neck cramp. The others embarked on playing Big 2 and watching TV.

We then went home. Slept all the way on the train, since I was super tired and feeling a little unwell. My voice is almost all gone, due to the announcing, commentating, hot sun and heaty food.

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To all the seniors who helped out these few days, thanks very much. I couldn't organised such a nice chalet if not for all of you who were there, and of course, my vice camp chief, Haikal, who racked his brains for the schedule and games and took over me a little in the noon when I started to feel a little unwell, Cheryn and Sen Rong, who worked a lot more than was assigned, Gibson, who relentless captured our memories on film, Zainol and Verena for being in charge of grub, and our fearless head, Michelle Neo.

Also, thanks to all the juniors for attending! This chalet's success would not have been possible if not for all of you. Thanks I hope you all enjoyed it.

P.S.: Photos will be posted up here, once Gibson uploads them. But I won't upload all 1.6k photos here. That'll be too overkill. :)

Ah, the stress released... temporarily

2010-06-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

With the EMD paper done, my MSTs are finally over! ><

It's been a loooooooooooong week. Meeting good ol' Ern and studying with him everyday was worthwhile though. It was good bonding and we got a lot of work done. Though we missed the PED online quiz. I could've sworn Au Yong said it would be due on Friday 11:59pm. =.= Gonna confront him on Monday..

Met with Jun Yi and Anwar separately and played YGO with them. Feel so shiok after a hiatus of 1 1/2 week. >< Tomorrow meeting Noel and Anwar to practise for the Singapore Championships on 20th June. Decktypes for the three of us determined for now. It's gonna start owning, folks! =]

Also, need to start emailing the Robocup contestants starting tomorrow. And prepare for the chalet. Phew, things are gonna get tough even during the holidays, folks!

Have fun, all, during your holidays. =)

Random updates

2010-06-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

My exam schedule the coming week. ><

Monday: PED, 10:30AM-12PM

Tuesday: PLC, 3.30PM- 5PM

Wednesday, SC, 3.30PM- 5PM

Friday, EMD, 3.30PM- 5PM

Alright folks. I'll keep this short. Not that anyone who is earnestly studying for their MSTs now would be even reading this.

To all SP folks, good luck for your MSTs the coming week.

Back to PED now. Ciao.

Random thoughts

2010-06-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

I was once told: "People changes according to the environment they mingle in. It's an unavoidable thing, you can't stop it."

How I would like to agree to that! When I was in Sec Sch, I've "absorbed" PH and KY's and Yang Lao Shi's super sarcasm. In Poly, I've tried to be like ZY (Popular), Sunny (Adapatable), Garry (Calm), Ernest (Funny and witty), Zack (Friendly), Jonathan (Accepted by all) etc. The list goes on, friends. Pardon me if I didn't include your names. Trust me. I've "sucked up" a wee something from every single one of you guys that I treasure. Just like a vacuum cleaner.

Or a black hole

It's not exactly a bad thing to learn the positive traits of all my friends, but gradually, I realized my past self had been lost within the vortex of my attempts to be like all my friends. And I realized another thing. It might be caused by a fear that everybody might not like or accept the person lost within that vortex.

It may be self-improvement. But recently, I find myself very prone to paranoia. That people might not like the current me. Or accept the current me. That I need to change more, and that more of who I am will suddenly be lost in the vortex again. It's unavoidable, unfortunately

I'm sure everyone has more or less encountered the same problems, but everyone has different approaches to solve the problem. Some chooses to retain as who they are to avoid the pain and be spared the agony of always trying to adapt to different people who wants them to be what others like better. Some, like me, keeps on changing, changing... till eventually... they "disappear", and you more or less find a new person there you might not recognize.

I guess things happen. Quoting Fel, "This is the world. You have to go into it."

But my reply to his philosophy will always be, "Then I hate the world as it is."

My only greatest comfort are my friends, but it is ironic that chasing after them and trying to reach their level is also my greatest burden. To me, they're at a level so high that I cannot reach, and I'm constantly climbing to reach them, but halfway through, I fall, only to keep trying again. No, I'm not blaming you all. It's just something that sprouted in my mind. It just occurred to me that instead of trying to climb up to your totems, I should instead find my own totem, no matter how short, and climb up to it. You guys are so awesome packed that I'm scared that one day, I might not be able to reach your levels, then you'll leave me behind and climb even further.

Just my two cents worth of comments. No specific friends this message is intended for. It's intended for everyone whom I've regarded as a friend for the past 18 years plus of my life. And I'm not blaming you guys. Instead, thank you, all, for being my friends. Thank you for entering my life.

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MST week is next week. >_< Procrastinator alert much?

Can't afford to fail anything. But I'm super worried for my SC. It's really really bad.

I pray to God that we can all get through this tough period, everyone. Good luck, everyone! :]

P.S.: Time to finish up my PED report due tomorrow...

Funnies

2010-05-31T12:44:00.000+08:00

Haha, just read Garry's blogpost. Was freakin' hilarious.

It's about past hobbies. Man, I should compare my country flag erasers with him someday. xD

Today, Qiao Zhi told me something quite illogical. She said that looking at people's blog is like stalking them and that people write blogs to read it themselves.

It's not just her. Apparently people like Ern also thinks that looking at a person's FB profile is equivalent to stalking them.

Ok people, time for a bit of education. Blogs are generally publicised, about thoughts you write to let people read. Then they comment on it, regardless of how nice/funny/stupid/dumb/retarded your thoughts are.

It's not stalking. People fully expect people to go to their blogs or FB profiles to read it and comment.

Stalker: Someone who prowls and sneak around; often with unlawful intentions.

So yeah, folks, don't confuse "following" with "stalking". The difference? The intentions.

On a totally unrelated note, my laptop's FINALLY gonna get fixed. Yes, yes, yes, yes. Won't need to quarrel with my mother or sister over the use of the laptop again. I'm going to uninstall Firefox and use Chrome though. Heard that it's really good.

MSTs coming, folks. Good luck to all SP students. :]

How I spent a completely free Saturday away...

2010-05-30T02:38:00.000+08:00

One thing I noted today (along with the rest of my life). Singapore is damn freaking warm! Seriously folks. Stop your industrial stuff and all that tree cutting. I don't care much about world preservation, but when it causes me to sweat more when I don't want to sweat, it's personal.

Went to Acer Service Centre today to get my laptop fixed. Good news: Warranty still valid, which means that to replace the LCD,I don't need to play a single cent for now. ^^ Saw Kelly there, or should I say, she saw me, by some coincidence. Didn't stay to talk much though, other from a single 'hi'.

Another good news involved Jun Yi finding Noel's Caius with him. That got me real freaked out yesterday when I couldn't find it. ><

Alex invited some of us guys to his birthday party . Me and Ern went over, but we didn't stay for more than an hour, cos it was sorta awkward. The other guys stayed back in Sembawang for dinner in the end, while I left for the sweet comfort of an air-con at home. Way too warm outside, even at night. Anyways, Happy Birthday, Alex.

3 weeks later got qualifiers for YGO OCG World Championships. Noel and Anwar's gonna join. Should I? I can get my main deck fixed up by then, but my side deck will be incomplete. I'll definitely lose if I don't get a side deck well prepared, especially against Blackfeather and Lightlord decks. Maybe I should just join for kicks.

So yeah, completely gone, one Saturday.

YGO has to be put on hiatus for now. I've got more pressing matters now to deal with.

1) MSTs. The schedule's out. Monday-Wednesday, Friday for 4 papers.

2) SC Online quiz. Due Sunday 11:55pm. 10 friggin' attempts,

3) PED report, due Tuesday. I don't have a laptop with friggin' MultiSim. I'll need to depend on Ern for this on Monday.

The matters above are so suffocating I should totally focus on them asap. Will buy my stuff to build up my deck after the MSTs are over. But there's the chalet planning too... Exercise plans...

I need a time manager. No seriously, I'll need a time manager. My time's so tight I can't breathe.

And I need a hug. Badly. Not desperately, but I need some serious cheering up.

See you, folks. :]

LP8000 VS LP25

2010-05-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

It was tough, it was an achievement, and seriously, it was a miracle. They guy had a full LP counter. I was left at LP25. I won. ^^

If anything, this has taught me that even if things look desperate, don't give up. Life sometimes has surprising twists in stall for you. All that is required of you, is to believe.

Met up with Anwar at 6:30pm and we played. Noel came at 9:30pm. We went home at 11pm, and I accompanied Noel in waiting for his 35 minutes bus. 5 hours of YGO without rest!!! ><

Fun is fun, but tbh, we're all now quite shagged. I believe we can all sleep like logs tonight. Tomorrow meeting up to play again, with Jun Yi.

Edited a few decks, came up with a few new ideas. But to be honest, after this Saturday, I will be stopping the cards till after MSTs.

PLC lab test and CSW class assignments went well today. More worried about the PED report and also, the SC online quiz. Need to start cracking tomorrow... after the card games!

Whew, adrenaline rush after almost losing to a complete stranger quite high today. Tomorrow will experience more of that. I'll just do my best and remember a valuable lesson my cards taught me.

Never give up even when the odds are against you. =)

Commitments

2010-05-25T19:30:00.000+08:00

Commitments. Someday or other, they chase after you. But well, that's human. Everyone's gotta have one or two of those.

1) PLC Lab Test 1
2) CSW Class Test 1
3) PED Report
4) 4 MST papers

Time to get cracking.

I, for once, want to enjoy my holidays without worrying too much about my results. Chalet must enjoy thoroughly. And YGO tourney, must win with maximum pleasure.

Tomorrow Wed got class. Stupid CSW... I hate that module. Haiz, no choice la... Gonna sign up for driving lessons with Garry and ZY.

Realised that I haven't exercised in like, very long time. Tomorrow morning since free I gonna go for a little jog. Tonight will sleep early purely for that sake.

Ciao, all, wish me luck.

Today...

2010-05-20T23:23:00.000+08:00

I did things today that I won't be able to forgive myself for. I found out facts that made me depressed.

I am so pissed off right now at myself that I want to punch myself like 5 times on the face to punish myself.

I am just a simple guy who wants to be happy, without the expense of others. But.. I am a coward. Yes, I am. People take the rap for me sometimes, forgive me, and all that. I appreciate it. But the feeling residing inside my heart will never be able to go away. I'm lucky to have friends like mine, but always taking advantage of their kindnesses. When I look at myself in the mirror, I get sick.

I suck. Big time.

Just realise that my photo assignment for my GEMs CA1 hadn't been officially started.I'm gonna change my theme to Yu-Gi-Oh! cards. Since we won't need to publicly present them, and only need to give in CD... well, I'll be able to deal with it.

Tomorrow is the last day of graduation. Good luck, seniors. Time sure flies. My turn next year already...

Tomorrow on, I'll also be embarking on a small journey. To find myself. And to trust in myself. I lack a lot of confidence, self esteem and optimism. With the way I am... I can't take on the world. Hesitance will only make people hate me. I need to rid myself of that factor.

I just realised a lot of people I know are beyond my horizons. They are as high and bright as the glittering stars in the sky, while I am... the useless sand on the ground people step on. I... want to fly and be on the same standing with them... but I can't. I don't know why, but I feel so helpless, so useless. When can I reach their level? When can I prove myself?

I don't know. I'm confused. I'm dumb. I'm stupid. I know.

I'll never get anywhere in the world with who I am now. If I want to rise, I need to discover dominant powers within myself, such as "motivation", "drive" etc.

ZH, it's time to wake up.

You can't depend on your friends who can tank for you now for the rest of your life. Eventually, you'll need to stand alone against the world. And they will also have their lives to take care of.

Realise that.

What a day...

2010-05-20T00:00:00.001+08:00

I wanted to help out with graduation, but couldn't... Haiz... I really really wanted to help. ><

Don't get me wrong. I love roadshows. I like hanging out with ZY, Garry and Steve. And I love Woodlands Ring, which I returned to after the parents' forum from before. But it's just that I really wanna help with graduation. Not to mentioned I left poor Haikal alone behind for the shift. Sorry about that, man.

Well, guess it can't be helped. I missed SPX too. This couldn't be compared to that one.

Friday meeting Anwar to pump up our decks for Saturday's Duel Tour. I really wanna test out my decks' capabilities.

Tomorrow PLC lab test. Hope I can handle it well, then one hurdle, GONE!~

Then after that, MST studies!

I really need to get started. Finish the tutorials! ><
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Most importantly, now is the magical moment, 12am, 20th May. Happy 19th Birthday, Sarah! Hope you remain beautiful, always. =)

1 1/2 hour to Sunday... Sian!!!

2010-05-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

Sunday hasn't ended... but I can already feel the Monday blues. Damn, the weekend really goes like the wind.

And Week 5 is here. Robotics lab test, PLC lab tests are on the way. And also, I have assignments to pass up for PED and stupid CSW. Photo journal for GEMs needs to be passed up on Week 6. Argh, feels so much trying to catch up to me. MSTs coming in 2-3 weeks. Only comfort is that my Wed will still be free, and that next 2 Saturdays Jap class holidays.

Whoop-de-f*cking-doo. -.-

That small amount of break will definitely brush by in no time. I'm not even thankful for it now. Haiz...

Fri and Sat hung out with Jun Yi (only Fri), Anwar and Noel (only Sat). YGO all the way. till absolute exhaustion. Can't explain how a card game can bring you to the brink of mind collapse, but I can feel my mind getting sharper after playing again. At least, my mind's moving faster than the past two years I quit.

^The three Phantom God Cards

Next Sat we going on a YGO marathon around Singapore. I need to cut some slack (low budget), my schedule for the weekdays will be totally hectic. I'm excited over it.

Can't wait for the June holidays to come. Chalet would be mad awesome. It's like the only motivation for me to study now, so I can get through the tests with confidence and be content about it while playing in a chalet.

Anyways, school is gonna suck. I'm gonna go Rambo on caffeine. As Ern keeps pointing out, I've been falling asleep in classes. Not cool. I need some caffeine or sugar to keep me alert for class.

Tomorrow Robotics lab test. Thanks, Ivan, for the encouragement. I'll do my best.

Ok, all good luck in whatever you guys do.

Tata.

Things to do...

2010-05-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

Right now, I have several of those...

Finish my entire laundry
Start to revise for MST (though it's early!)
Start to exercise again
ACER logo for ACER shirt (Made 2, but will be making more!)
SP ACER JR Recruitment Powerpoint Slide
Duel Duel Duel! (Noel coming out on Friday! The team meeting up on Sat! :])

Time really really goes by fast. In a flash, Monday night is here again. It seemed as if just yesterday Friday night was here.

I guess it might be attributed to my Saturday being 70% taken up by my Japanese classes that my weekend seem short. ><

Tomorrow: Tuesday. Fast coming in approximately 20 minutes. And I still don't have a third and final design for the ACER logo to hand in to Michelle. I guess I'm royally screwed. Nothing comes to mind! I just open my Photoshop, and I start to stun there for like 5 minutes. Nothing. 10 minutes. Nothing. 20 minutes. Nothing. And well, it goes on.

Today went to dinner at Xing Wang Hong Kong cafe with my sister, Xuan. I recommend all of you NOT to eat the curry chicken rice there. It's like 90% fat and 10% curry, and well, it's making me sort of sick now. The coconut milk taste lingers in my throat and I just want to puke now. In addition to my worsening cough (no thanks to curry!), a bad tummy is not what I need now.

Tomorrow, Tuesday, is my sister's revision time. Ern is coming over to teach her Maths. Then Wed we'll head over to Bishan together for the roadshow.

For my YGO life... I just made a new deck inspired by Anwar and partially PH in the past. Two new decks actually. I split my BEWD Beatdown into two sectors now: Dragon and Strategy (Kaiba and Yugi Styles, you can compare that way). I've been sort of testing both of them, but I want to play against some real opponents other than myself. Damn! Too bad Anwar is not free till Friday, and I'm going to have to cancel my outing tomorrow with Jun Yi due to some schedule conflict. I need a real good opponent!!! Noel's still in Tekong, zzz. The soonest I can pay is Sat! I can feel the restrain!!! Urgh!!!

Friday Jr. recruitment approaching. I super stress mode activated. Need to finish up my tutorial for my EMD soon also if I want to help out till 5pm.

I better go iron my father's clothes, drink my cough medicine, and go to bed. I'm in pretty bad shape now.

ACER gang, I miss you guys! >< I wanna meet you all so bad!

Same for the YGO khakis!

Nightz, all.

Catch ups!

2010-05-09T20:47:00.005+08:00

Every once in a while, it's always cool to catch up with some old pals. :]

It's been like almost half a year since I saw most of them at all! Especially Liwen and Grace, whom I almost have zero opportunities to meet.

It was a nice dinner in a good cafe at 313 Somerset, known as Blue Mountain.

I recommend the Rosemary chicken to you guys. The portion notwithstanding, the quality was good. I liked the sauce they used, and the mashed potato was awesome.

For the two hours we sat there, we talked cock, made fun of one another, joked and well, yeah, we caught up. :]

^My awesomezxzx friends! ^_^
From top to bottom:
Felix, Shiwei, Grace, Liwen

After dinner, there was obviously the dessert. I didn't eat any due to my inability from my bad cough.

Before

After

We sorta walked to Orchard where Liwen had to meet her bf. Then we took the train from there home. I took the green line with all the other folks, and more photo taking came along da way! :]

All good things had to come to an end. I alighted at JE, exhausted, and trudged home.

Guys, we should definitely do more of these outings next time! :]

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Side note!

I've been designing the ACER shirt together with good ol' Garry. He's been trying so hard to create a nice design. Guys, let's applaud him!

While I've came up with two logo candidates for our SP ACER logo! I'll make 3 and let Michelle choose by herself. And there's the powerpoint I'll need to complete for the Junior ACER Candidates' Briefing

The chalet's confirmed, and the JR recruitment will begin this Friday. Wednesday's cancelled. We're all reved up to go, folks! :]

Need to rev up for my studies and sports too. MST counting down to five weeks!

Let's do our best, everyone! :]

IP Man 2

2010-05-08T00:33:00.000+08:00

Barely yesterday (Friday night), a group of 7 went to Iluma to watch Ip Man 2. The initial plan was to watch Iron Man 2, but the plans and priorities changed, and we switched movies at 7:09pm when the movie was supposed to start at 7:10pm. (Y)

The culprits today were Me, Ern, Zack, Haikal, Sen Rong, Ivan and Pei Zhen.

Ip Man 2 was good. I give it a 5/5. Ern was so impressed he declared he's going to learn Wing Chun. Gotta say that if this movie was based on real life events, Ip Man is really my hero now. I'm gonna try to get an opportunity to watch Ip Man 1 now.

After the very very cool movie, we went to Bugis Junction's Food Junction for dinner. Ate chicken rice, and we started to chat and take some photos around. :]

^ Yesterday's culprits! Note the extremely handsome guy sitting in the centre of the photo! :P

Went home on the same train as everyone except for Zack and CodyErnest. Chatted till we parted at certain points.

I'm sort of broke after the movie and the dinner. Shit, I really need to save up...

Now I need to figure out how to get cash for the Sec School gang outing tomorrow with Fel, Liwen, Grace and Shi Wei.

Ciao, all. Good night.

Pushing my limits!

2010-05-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

I need to do that, even if it means forcing my body to extreme exhaustion.

From next week on, I resolve to study at least 2 hours per night, go to the gym 4 times per week, stay on a very strict low carbo/fat diet, spend less time on the computer.

I need to do that. The past two weeks took a toll on my body. My severely injured foot and my 'flu caused me to be unable to exercise, and also hindered my ability to think. I'm very behind on a lot of things now.

I'm gradually losing confidence, while she is gradually, to me, growing more beautiful, yet more distant. I don't want that. I want to be a man worthy of her.

So it's time to go go go.

I'm going to push my body to its absolute limits even if it kills me. I want to succeed, and I don't want to let some people to look down on me anymore. I'll challenge myself and I'll bloody take on and complete my own challenge. Even if it takes me down.

Tomorrow meeting Michelle for meeting for Junior ACER Recruitment Drive! It's finally after the 6th and she's finally free to handle our stuff.

Next week's going to be the best week ever. I've got a Road Show and I've got the Junior's Recruitment presentation to deal with. I love ACER stuff, so i don't mind.

Can't wait to see who's been recruited to ACER. I'm damn excited.

Was at PLC lab's free access till 8:30pm just now. Got Ern to teach me the complicated programs. I still wonder how he does the thing like so easy. I get a lot of problems with it. After finishing up my practice, I sorta hung around Zack and we chatted a bit.

Tomorrow going out with the ACER gang to watch Iron Man 2. I didn't really watch the first movie before, but well, I'll just go watch the sequel and see how it goes.

Saturday meeting Fel, SW, Grace, Liwen and the NTSS gang up for dinner. God, I miss those people. It's been half a year since our last full outing.

Catching up with you guys soon! Ciao! :]

Another outing missed; ironic it is on another Saturday...

2010-05-01T12:10:00.000+08:00

Once, there was a Open House closing celebration (unofficial) by some of the ACERs. I CMIed because of Japanese classes on Saturdays.

Then there was a primary school steamboat outing on another Saturday which I once again failed to make it because of Japanese class due to it being on a Saturday.

Just as I thought that I could make it to a free dinner with the ACERs this Saturday because it is a public holiday... I came down with the 'flu and a mild fever.

Screw it, the timing could not have been worst.

I hate it when I miss outings. Really. Really. Hate it. And I'm finally free on a Saturday too. This shit happened. I really like it when I'm hanging out with the gang and talking and laughing. But no... I had to cancel my plans tonight because of my weak immune system.

You guys have fun, gang. I'll be helping to plan the chalet to make it as fun as I can for you as possible.

Trust me, I really want to see you guys... but it seems like I'm being denied the opportunity. Wouldn't want to spread the illness to you guys.

Down with the 'flu

2010-05-01T00:13:00.002+08:00

Happy Labour Day, all.

Right now, the clock reads 12:03am. Given the time and my body's current condition, I should definitely be in bed.

Super sick now... Headache, cough, sneeze, blocked nose, runny nose, sore throat... that combination is like, really annoying. Hope I can recover in time for tomorrow's outing. Foot also still not recovering fully.

I think I'm also coming down with a fever... This morning's temperature read 37.4deg Celsius, which is the extremeness of not feverish.

Went to school with Sophia this morning. I was late, but the tutor haven't even started the tutorial when I arrived. 3 hours break I dedicated myself to sleeping to rest up.

Felt horrible in class. Coughed, sneeze, and all of that hurts with my sore throat. People who had the flu before know what I mean.

Met Nadiah on my way home. She saw me in a wreck and offered me a hug. Thanks, Nadiah, but I wouldn't want to infect you with my flu.

Only good thing today is the confirmation of the junior recruitment for ACERs and the chalet going to get booked. I am so looking forward to that. =)

Signing off, I'd better get to bed now to get more rest.

Ciao, and thank you to Zack, Sophia, Ern, ZY, Garry and Nadiah for your concerns. I appreciate it.

Time...

2010-04-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

10 days have passed since I last blogged. I guess it takes up more energy than I thought.

Been planning the ACER chalet and stuff recently, and been practising YGO recently. Me and Anwar probably training for the September tourney.

Injured my left foot very seriously, and it took away my trips to the gym and exercising.

Saving's been failing. I need to control my money output and my food input...

School's been... fun, but tiring. Gonna need to revise soon.

I'll blog more if I have more energy the next time. I'm really shagged today.

Ciao. :]

3rd Year

2010-04-19T22:29:00.001+08:00

Finally, the third post. The one that will also reflect a lot of my emotions. The first day of my last year in SP.

It seriously seems as if I was Year 2 yesterday and Year 1 the day before yesterday. Heck, where did the time disappear too?

The first two years of SP were full of memories, great ones... bad ones. I've met many people, great ones... not so great ones.

But they all made me who i am today as a third year. I was shaped by the past two years of experience.

Ok, today.

I went to the Digital Imaging GEMs I registered for this morning first. It's a good GEM. I like the fact that photography is involved. But today was just... plain boring. I mean, the lecturer was teaching me stuff I already known two years ago.

Met up with my awesomexzx classmates later on in the next class. Never felt better to have seen them again than before. Ivan, Rafiz, Hasif and Asyaari got to 3B first, so we don't see them anymore, but we have Robotics on Monday, so we managed to meet up with the cool Robotics World Skills guys for a bit. Half of Monday was taken up by Robotics, who is taught by the amazing Mr Tan.

After school me and Haikal went to gym. Thanks for the training, Haikal. My chest is feeling rather... trained right now, haha.

Picked up ten bucks on the floor on my way home. Can I be any luckier today?

First day of school today was cool, too bad this might actually be the last "first day of school" for me already...

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Today, 19th April, is the birthday of a very important friend. Happy Birthday, April!

Happy Birthday to April, who is now in America studying in University, and I wish her to be happy

You've been a pivotal friend in my life, and I am thankful for that. I appreciate all that you've once done for me before.

Good luck in whatever you do!

Also, today is Yimin's birthday. Happy Birthday, Yimin. Let's chiong MSN games sometime again! =D

Sentosa!

2010-04-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

I'm going to make this post kind of different, like a photo journal. Hope you guys don't mind!

Sunday, 18/4/2010. Day of reckoning. It's the trip to Sentosa's beach! Aloha~

10am, the first group of arrivees went to Giant to get the picnic foodstuff!

Two beaches to choose from, and we went to Siloso's very far end cos there were volleyball courts there!

^The gang trudges on the way!

Turns out we didn't play volleyball though. We used the balls to play soccer, and passing. Was fun though! =]

^The game begins!

^Beach boys and girl, Zack poses!

^Nadiah, the goalkeeper

^Chiong ah!

^In or out!!!

Then the water and sand activities! ZY and CK got buried, haha. The rest of us swam. The saltwater getting into our eyes really hurt. Steve getting his googles was a good move. Played water polo, and also lied down by the water and napped under the skies. Feels awesome! The sandpack was supposed to trap them though, but dang, they managed to get out haha.

^Me saboing ZY

^ZY plays dead

^CK sabo ZY haha

^ZACK IT LOOKS WRONG!!!

^NOW IT LOOKS EVEN WRONGER!!!

^ZY breaks free

^ZACK, YOU AND YOUR EROTIC REFERENCES!

^Fun shot again, haha.

^The guys in the water!

^The girls poses with the sea.

^Our very own Nadiah poses for the camera. Give a round of applause for her, boys!

^Another bonus shot!

^CK's turn to play dead

^Silent Hill: CK edition

^A bright and radiant smile for the girls out there. CK, they're whistling at you! :P

Yeah, it was a fun day, but all good things had to end. We had our shower and after, the legendary group photos!

^Our group photo at the end.

Left on the tram which took us here, and on the stations, we took a few shots again!

^Me and the beautiful backdrop

^Sentosa: Island paradise

^Garry on the tram

We left at around 6 plus and left for Carl's Jr for dinner.

^No erotic references intended.

Chatted and sat around eating our burgers till 8 plus, before the North-Siders left. That's the end of my photo journal post of beautiful memories. Hope you enjoyed it. ^_^

Feelings of the past six weeks...

2010-04-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

A little late of a post, sorry.

ITP. Industrial Training Program. Over.

YAY! =D

After six weeks, our ITP has finally ended! ^_^

During this period, I've made new friends in the form of colleagues, schoolmates and the cleaners.

It had been a tough period of most of us, who was forced to take jobs we might not have liked, but now it's over. Though the feeling of having my holiday snatched from my grasp feels a little... well, crushing.

Kind of weird though, that I actually started to miss the place even after leaving. I'm not sad to leave though, even the colleagues noted how I was trying not to smile during the last 30 minutes.

Still need to collect my logbook and finish my reports though.

Jeremy, Kenneth, Eddie and Sunny were all great friends who went through thick and thin with me over the grueling six weeks. Thanks, guys. :D

^Some photos of the fire drill at our workplace. :]

I'll touch up on the Sentosa trip and Return-to-school posts in new posts, since they are all packed with individual feelings.

Biker Gang

2010-04-11T23:50:00.001+08:00

Wosh! Haven't really updated in awhile despite my earlier promises. Warukatta.

Friday met Anwar and Saturday met Noel for some YGO. Noel's OTK ideas are blossoming fast, and Anwar's suggestion for my Spellcaster deck were really useful. Yew Tee imba card shop makes the deck making possible.

Talking about the card shop, today, something funny happened. My cousin wants to find his way around the imba card shop. So he googled "Yew Tee card shop". My blog was the third on Google Search. He didn't even knew it was my blog till he saw that the blog owner goes to Bukit Panjang.

LOL right?!

Went biking with Ern today. No YGO 5D's reference. No card games on bicycles. xD

Stamina really decreased a lot, but that might be attributed to the sun. Weather's uber hot today! Cycled to ECP today, and back to Ern's house.

Played Counterstrike at his house today! I LOVE AWP MAP!!!

ITP about to end, and school is about to start again. Decided to take Photoshop GEMs with the awesome Garry haha. Our schedule sort of changed that now, we have no school on Wednesday Mr Tan Pua Meng, you have officially made me happy. I'll definitely improve my PLC scores from my IA to make you proud.

Been listening to makemagic by jealkb, which is YGO movie's theme song. The song's first lyrics were really inspirational to me haha.

"Go on, let your courage out, have hope, throw away your past and pray for the future."

Well, that's all for now.

Left eyelids twitching...

2010-04-05T23:59:00.001+08:00

Bad luck. It's been plaguing me for these few days.

I wasn't one for superstition... but ever since my left eyelid's been twitching three days ago till now, a lot of stuff's happened. My life already sucked, but it's all downhill from now.

I hate it.

I want my life to be fun, normal and cool. This week full of bad happenings is just... depressing. Hate my life...

Wish I can laugh, but I'm too depressed for that now. I want to cry out really loud for hours and hours to let off the misery, but as a guy, it's not possible to get a girl to lend me her shoulder. (For goodness sake, things would be really opposite)

I want my nice life back. I don't want it to be extremely fun or anything if it's too much, but at least give me back a normal life where I can stop feeling only angry, upset, mad, sad or dejected.

Zack said that I shouldn't be pessimistic. I want to be optimistic. But I need a start for things to start to look happy.

At least give that to me.

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Happy 17th Birthday to my sister!

Happy 19th Birthday to Zheng Yan!

I think I'm the last to wish, considering the fact I post this post at 11:59pm on the 5th April, heh. :]

Sunday = family dinner

2010-04-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

Family dinners are kinda rare nowadays, with my hardworking father slogging his guts out at work to bring home the bacon. Today was kinda special though, he could not miss it. Tomorrow's my sister's birthday, and of course, we had to celebrate it tonight.

Went to Hotel Rendezvous to have our dinner buffet to celebrate for her. It sure changed since the last time we went (two years ago during my birthday). I realise that I'm still the same with buffets: little main courses, spams on dessert. Well, of all kinds of flavours, I do like sweet stuff best of all. So yeah, I only had pictures of the desserts. The main course didn't really capture my attention. It's just sushi and stuff. Took some photos of the food, inspired by Felix's FB food album.

^Plate of cake and fruits draped with chocolate topping!

^Plate of cake and fruits draped with chocolate topping... after I was done with it. :P

^Pastry and durian and pudding. Mmm...

^My top favourite food of all: Ice-cream!

Well, it was an enjoyable dinner and all. Hoped my sis enjoyed it.

Tomorrow's my sister's birthday, and also, not to forget my primary school's best pal, Zheng Yan's birthday!

^He's the only guy in this picture without glasses! :]

I wish both of them a happy birthday, good health, and that their wishes will all come true! :]

Lady luck dumped me for good. =(

2010-04-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

3rd April. It is supposed to be a happy day. I mean, it's ZY's birthday!~ Happy 20th Birthday, ZY!

But I ran into some misfortune, and accidentally "infected" him with i a bit of it today... Sorry... T_T

Arranged with ZY and Sunny to meet at Orchard for lunch to celebrate ZY's birthday. Was supposed to reach at 1pm, so I went out at 11:30am, plenty of time.

Ten minutes after that, while I was on the bus, two things happened. First, my bag zipper spoiled. Second, my handphone battery went kaboom on me. When I charged it to full batt just around 1 hour ago. Wow. I'm so going to the service centre to switch the battery with my warranty. It's faulty.

Like the good chap he is, ZY reached early (at 12:30pm). I reached at 12:50pm. But without my phone, I had no way to contact him, so I had to bet by waiting for him at the control station, and while he, having no reply from me, had to bet and wait at the sitting area at ION's second floor. Turns out both of us betted wrongly.

In the end, he thought I pang sehed him and called his secondary school pals for an earlier meet up. I managed to meet him at 1:50pm after borrowing the service counter's person's phone, but nothing could be done at that point, since he need to meet them at Jurong Point at 3pm.

I feel really bad. It's my luck, and I involved him in part of it, having him waited alone in town for 1 1/2 hours. I need to make it up for him, adding to his birthday gift.

We walked about a little, and got a little snack. Sunny then joined us, then we walked to Centrepoint for a bit.

Reached Ikoma at 3.15pm. Saw Nakamura-sensei and my classmates who all reached early, despite the fact our class was supposed to start at 4:45pm. Napped on the chair while doing my homework halfway, lol.

Zack called me this morning if I wanted to go to the eastside to bike with them for ZY's birthday with CK and Ern. As I had my Jap class, I couldn't. And I did another idiotic thing. I asked ZY to contact me if they were having dinner after, but I stupidly forgot: I had no phone. How the heck were they supposed to contact me. Argh!!! Dumb me! I feel so ashamed to see ZY now. >_<

Wanted to eat Mc for lunch, so i tried to catch the McValue lunch. Reached at 3:01pm, and they refused to let me order that, so I skipped lunch. Never mind, diet, diet...

Yeah, Lady Luck certainly dumped me for the day. How can I appease her to make her come back to me? I surely don't know. =(

Updating~

2010-04-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

Wosh, and the 4th week of work ends soon, cos this time, it's gonna be a TFGIF (Thank F*cking Goodness it's Friday!). Why? Cos this Friday is a Good Friday! Hooray for public holidays! xD

Tuesday that time, something funny in my office happen. The OLs around my area said they smelled Johnson Baby Powder. So in the end, they spent a good 45 minutes trying to find the culprit. In the end, one of the senior executive came up to me and ask me "Boy, you powder yourself is it?" Then all of them started to laugh. Very pai seh sia lol. Then I said no, and why she think that way. Then she replied, "Cos you are the xiao boy boy of the office ma." Pai seh x2.

But okay la, things like this spice things up every once in a while. Work is boring.

Today is a very weird day. Dunno good or bad. It had ups, it had downs.

It started bad. This morning, I was damn shagged. During 8am-10am, I at work sure very shagged one. Then my supervisor walk in (cos my seat in front of the door), I think she pass by me see me like half asleep. =_= And I didn't even notice her. Hope it won't affect my grades. She might be thinking I am sleeping at work.

Then good thing. I got assigned a lot of other jobs other than answering queries. Answering queries is the most boring job on Earth. I'm so glad other jobs were given to me.

At night, another good thing. I saw a really pretty girl I used to like before. You know, the third year girl I mentioned? (If you read my blog in the past, you should know) Yeah, I saw her at Yew Tee. Apparently, she lives around the area.

Bad thing, she was with her boyfriend. Wow. Even Anwar noted I turned totally silent then.

But the next good thing, I found an imba card shop down at Yew Tee which sell Secret Rare cards at imba cheap rates. xD I'm really back in the game! With cards this cheap, I can make a new deck with just $40!

Tried Synchros on YVD. They're good... but I got pwned whenever I use them. Guess I need to get used to those. Good and bad thing again, I guess. :/

ITP left 11 working days! JYJY! ZH you can do it! xD

K la, will update again soon. Ciao!

Full day out! Full weekdays gone!

2010-03-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

15 days left!

1/2 of our ITP is gone, now to tackle another 15 days only!!! Work is getting better. Both me and Sunny are getting more varied tasks. Never woulda thought that 3 weeks would go like that.

Two days ago, hung out with KY and PH. They gave me all their YGO cards to use, and now, I have 5 decks, with my Monarch Gadget fully powered up. Oh yeah. Then we were at KY house, where we YVDed for 1 1/2 hours.

Met up with Anwar and Noel today, with some trading and Noel giving me some really good cards, we played, ate, chat and went all out. I really owe the both of them a lot, especially Noel, who have always been generous to me since we were 14. Before he go NS, I definitely must treat him to something good.

And the fact that he is still a genius deck maker remains. His on-the-spot decks, like his Phoenix Turbo Draw Deck today and the Ancient Gear Savage Deck he made for both of us to share were pure genius.

YGO suddenly became fun again, with meeting up with old friends and reliving our old times through some trading cards. Those moments... are something I will always remember. And will never forget. My friends, who will always help me to form decks, supply me cards... Thank you, all. I'll definitely return the favour one day.

Monday meeting up with my good old cousins again. Time to play more card games to bond!

Great that it's FRIDAY! No work tomorrow!!! ^_^ I need to sleep earlier already. Having lack of sleep recently cos I've been playing card games till 2am... GAH! Addiction can be such a bother. >_<

Weekdays can go so slow, while weekends end so mercilessly fast...

2010-03-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

I wonder why. It's so incomprehensible when every Sunday night, you are like "EH, WHERE DID MY TIME GO TO!?" Saturday was pretty much wasted. I mean, when you need to leave house at around 2.30 plus to reach Orchard at 4pm plus, and go home at 7pm plus to reach home at almost 9pm, half your day is gone...

Fel got ill, with fever to boot, and couldn't make his appearance on Sat for Jap class. Hope he's better now. His ITP got Sunday shift somemore, and he refuses to get MC for it. Foolish guy...

Today, I went over to Tampines.

Me and Ern were supposed to go biking, but the weather is somehow against us. Tampines wasn't raining, but the other areas were... such as ECP. Plans were kinda ruined, so I just stayed at his house and we L4Ded with Clara. His toddler cousin quite friendly haha. I think the girls will go "so cute!" at him like how they went at Zack's sister.

After L4Ding for almost two hours, we went to meet up with Zack at Tampines who wants to buy a mask for his Masquerade Ball for his GNY camp. After hunting NTUC, Popular, Toys 'R Us and some other hobby shops, we came along the following choices.

Choices:
1) Barney party mask
2) Ichigo (Bleach) mask
3) Transformers (Optimus Prime and Bumblebee) masks

The choice was obvious. The only one that came even close to acceptance was the Ichigo mask. I feel sorry for his wallet though. The mask was pretty expensive, considering it is supposed to be either a collectible, or for cosplay purposes.

Zack has my gratitude for wanting to provide me free zoo tickets to ask a certain someone out. If I succeed this time, he's so gonna get a lollipop treat from me. =D Otherwise, it'll be another group outing with the costs cut after the free tickets.

Haiz... Sunday passed by in a flash. It's now Monday again...and in 7 hours time, it's work time again... I hope I get a better grade for the second week... :/

Fridays should be made national holidays

2010-03-18T21:56:00.001+08:00

Yeah, tomorrow, after work, I sure shout TGIF one... Like last working day of the week! That's 21 days left till ITP finish! ZH YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Today I go home and chiong YVD with PH, haha. Noel's Ancient Gear deck plan is imba fast. I use it like unstoppable on one test run. Used Crystal and Ojama, then got PH help me test out Cyber deck. All like move very fast one. Speed summon really is my forte, haha... New Ojama cards like effect link with one another for effect one.

Tomorrow go my cousins' house, help them setup YVD.. Very good deck tester. Sian... I like suddenly addicted to a harmless children's trading card game again. :P

Today like come home eat one of my pastime favourite traditional snack: Dried mangoes. Wa, sweet sweet one, feel shiok. Somemore no fat content and all that. But very heaty, must drink a lot of water after eating hor!

Tomorrow ITP grading again. Have a hunch will get another 'B'. Haiz... must ask the supervisor why already, and how to get an 'A'. Like always got 'B' liddat sia.

I asked her out for the cosplay summit next week! Seems like she's spending her entire holidays on her job, haiz. But managed to maintain a SMS convo with her till night time, haha. Slightly encouraged and happy. :] Too bad didn't manage to go out with her... Always a next time!

Tomorrow, I will await 5:35pm with enthusiasm and great expectations. Then I will go to Bukit Panjang and have my fun like there's no tomorrow with cards and PS3. Mark my words.

I need to have an outing! I want one, I want one! My life is now very boring, so I need one! Anyone has any ideas for an outing that is low cost, fun and consumes a lot of time? Going to the pool again with the gang seems like a good idea!

Back to the game

2010-03-18T00:29:00.001+08:00

ITP has entered its second week! So fast Wednesday of the second week already... Hope it ends even faster.

Me and Sunny first week only got 'B'. I'm not happy about it. Everyone else I know who are in the different sections/jobs gets 'A's. This week if another 'B' I going to ask why already.

SP Xperience 2010 ended today... without me in it. Another thing that made me hate ITP is that I can't attend this event.

Lemme explain specifically.

SP ACER is one of the best thing that happened to me after I entered SP. A lot of good friends, seniors and such are in there. Engaging in events with them has made me the happiest person on Earth whenever I do so. Now it's been replaced by a job which I have zero interests in, gives me only a 'B'. Somemore, this year SP Xperience more fun than last year's. I won't have a chance to engage in another one of it. Next year's SP Xperience, I just nice finish 3rd Year. Watching them having fun in the pictures and the videos makes me feel happy for them, but my heart really aches that I can't be in those photos and videos, and will never get a chance to be again. You get the picture. I really very nearly almost cried when I realised that fact... Less chances to create fun memories of being a student...

Recently, back in YGO with the old card game gangs. My cousins, PH, KY, Noel and Anwar. Been trying out YVD just now with KY and PH. KY owns with Exodia deck. Gonna try out a deck Noel made for me. It seems pretty good. Been going to my cousin's house more often for the games.

Now, the life of a working bachelor is never easy. Often, after work, you couldn't possibly gather strength to cook dinner. So, since my sisters don't cook unless beckoned to, my dinners have been reduced to these.

Pathetic, right? But ok la. The triangular toast contains boiled eggs, cheese and ham inside. Carbo + Protein diet. Damn shiok whenever I eat it... But too bad only that little. It's really good though.

Tomorrow end already, I come home sleep my ass off. Too little sleep lately already. Friday going to my cousins' house again for more YGO. I've been helping him form his decks, which are all effective.

Photoshopping! :]

2010-03-14T00:50:00.001+08:00

Made myself a phone wallpaper! =D Pretty satisfied with the results. It's not as good as something Garry could make though, but I still like this one.

^Darker than Black phone wallpaper

It's not the best I made, but well, considering that I've been on hiatus for quite awhile, I'm pretty satisfied. I'm having trouble adjusting it to the correct size to fit my phone screen. Someone mind telling me how to check your phone's screen size? Tips anybody?

Re-living old hobbies are fun. Suddenly playing Yu-Gi-Oh! and photoshopping again... wow, the feeling is shiok!

P.S.: I'm letting my guard down by not putting any initials because I trust that no readers of my blog will steal my work. If you wish to use it or something, please inform me. Your cooperation is kindly appreciated. Please keep in mind that there is a risk for stealing as photoshoppers are savage creatures who will not hesitate to kill any thieves who steal their work. Thank you for reading this. =]

The best days of a week for a student: Fridays and Saturdays!

2010-03-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Friday: "Generally the fifth day of a week. It is the sixth day in countries that adopt a Sunday-first convention and in traditional Abrahamic tradition. In most countries with a five-day work week, Friday is the last workday before the weekend and is therefore viewed as a cause of celebration and relief (leading to the phrase 'TGIF', for 'Thank Goodness It's Friday)." [Koped from Wikipedia]

But enough about the analogy and let me just shout TGIF! Since I don't have ITP on Saturday and Sunday, to me, it is a damn great cause of celebration and relief (koped from above). You guys have no idea how boring ITP is. -.-

After work, I went over to my cousin's place at Bukit Panjang for some childish children's trading card games (The name might be called Yu-Gi-Oh! I think)! :] I'm not going to buy anymore new cards, but it's nice to get the dust out of my old cards sometimes just to do some thrashing. A man with four decks has surely got a lot of dust to get rid of!

Well, after that game, I went home. Since it was my father's birthday, we bought a cake, some supper and had a small celebration among ourselves! :]

^Yummy yummy mango cake! :]

Sung the song, did the norm, and the celebration was soon broken up.

Now to talk about Saturday. No worries, no more Wikipedia bullcraps.

11:20am, I woke up and found out I was supposed to be somewhere 20 minutes ago with one phonecall from Noel. "Oh f*cking shit." were the only words running through my head back then. I rushed to Yew Tee MRT immediately meet up with the old card game gang. Yeah, it was pure coincidence! Right 4 hours after my cousin called me for a game, my old card game gang called me to play also. FYI, my friends dunno my cousin.

We played a few games, and I found out that while I was enjoying my retirement, Noel and Anwarsecretly levelled up in underground and aboveground tournaments respectively. What a waste of money. When they asked me why I am no longer spending money on cards, I told them I was saving it for "adult usage".

^My four decks! Monarch, Beatdown, Six Samurai and Crystal Beasts. :]

Well, it was fun to re-liven the old times, but I got owned by their stupid OTK (One Turn Kill) combos. >< Imba. They sure are born meta players for tournaments. Well, not me. I prefer to play for leisure. That is what "playing" means. Why so serious?

Noel informed me about a cosplay event, which I got hyped up to go to, because I might see a certain someone there. He neglected to tell me until two hours later that there was an entrance fee of $10. -.- Should I go? Cosplayers are nothing to marvel about, to be honest, after me and Zack took photos with them at Escapade. Unless those cosplayers look as good as her!

^Dunch jealous, guys!

My primary motive to go is so I can see someone (no, not the girl above) anyway, which I think will reject my every offer to see her. So, should I go? Hmm... Decisions, decisions...

After the card game session, I headed to Orchard. Saw this damn chio bu sitting in front of me till she alighted two stops before me. Whoa, she was damn hot. >< Way out of my league. Had my lesson, and I tested my camera and took a few shots around the place.

^They should be glad I'm advertising for them...

^And their toilet directions. Wow, the reception sure were staring at me when I was taking this shot...

^"I AM GUNDAM!"

^Nyan Koi, anyone? :P

^They say that if you fold a thousand paper cranes, your wishes will come true...

^If my future house is golden like this, I would be really happy ah!

After that, me and Fel headed to ION for a few snacks of Mini Okonomiyaki, some chicken skillet and curry korokkes. Damn cheap! $1 per item only, and those stuff usually cost more than that outside. Plus, it's all piping warm, and when you buy 5, you get one free. For you guys who are interested, it's called Tokyo Monja.

^My stamp card for Tokyo Monja!

^Mini Oko(nomiyaki) from there!

^And their delicious curry korokke, which I took a bite out of.

^A totally unrelated takoyaki stall nearby. I just saw their takoyaki frying so beautifully that I couldn't resist taking a shot. >< Sorry for poor quality of picture.

Me and Fel then chatted about our ITPs on the train, before I headed home.

Wa, my handphone, which was damaged 3-4 months ago, suddenly revive by itself! Damn scary! But thanks to that, I can now take and upload photos. Poor quality too, sorry about that. Don't blame me, it's just 2 Megapixels. Even with a super duper pro cameraman, there is only so much I can do! :] But thanks to that I can now post pictures of what I want to photograph! ^_^

And be warned, my hobby is taking pictures! Don't mind if you end up here. Hehehe...

Pictures from 5/3, and more from 7/3; FRIDAY IS COMING!!! W00TS!!!!

2010-03-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

Pictures from Sophia's awesomezxzx 10Megapix camera are here! :]

^An honoured shot with the birthday girl!

^Tampines Tigers

^Sophia and the Tampines Tigers

^It's a Kamen Rider!

^He's slowly taking off his mask...

^Identity exposed!

^Group photo of the day! :)

Glad you had a good time, Sophia! :D

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Now, for the extremely very unglam photos on 7/3/2010's outing!

^What the heck is Shida doing with her hand in that kind of motion...

^Unglam Zack!

^Someone's on ecstacy...

^How my face looks like when it's sunburnt

^ :P

^Leroy and Sen Rong: Enforcers of Evil

^Both so emo~ ><

^Black and yellow combo, like honeybees...

^"OMG!!!"

^Just do ~~her~~ it

SUPER Unglam, right! Don't worry, there'll be plenty more chances for photographs like these in the future! =D

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Huah.... ITP... so sianz....

Somemore I so shagged today. >< Keep almost dozinig off. Even coffee don't help. Plus my seat is like in front of the air-con. Super cold, like Arctic liddat. The very hot coffee turn cold after 3 minutes.

Just when I thought that there was an OMG WOWZERS vending machine which sell drinks for 30cents, the fruit punch had ants in it. -.-

Work is still ok. But I had hoped that I can be helping out in ACER at school, not sending service emails for Acer Computers.

Good thing Friday is almost here. Tomorrow go play Yu-Gi-Oh! with my cousins again! Then Sat take on Anwar and Noel after not meeting for so long! :] Haha, older relations are starting to bond more after newer ones are falling slightly apart.... Quite a big sacrifice. :X

Well, that's all.

ITP

2010-03-09T01:12:00.001+08:00

Yeeeah, ITP begins.

Me and Sunny reached at 8am, and gave the manager our mug shots, IC photocopies and etc. We luckily got into the business department of Mentor Media Pte Ltd, which has the coldest air-conditioning of all the rooms there.

The supervisors and manager are kind, the job is not so complicated, though I made a few mistakes, but still manageable. :]

It's just the long hours that get on us. We need to sit down on a desk for what, 9 hours to do the same thing over and over again. Still can manage though, but I'd rather go play in a swimming pool like yesterday. Starting to get addicted to the smell of chlorine water, haha. Good thing my workplace is like 5 metres away from Bukit Batok Swimming Complex.

Went over to my cousin, Jun Yi's place after work, and we embarked on playing Yu-Gi-Oh!. It's been a while since I played, but I guess that my skills hasn't diminished much yet. Played his awesome PS3 games, and passed him some anime to watch.

Tomorrow was planning to go swimming, but remembered that I have school library books overdue. Need to return by tomorrow or fines will start piling! So yeah, after work, I'll be going back to Dover for awhile. Wednesday onwards then start my daily swimming/diet/stamina training regime. Determination, determination... and you'll be able to see a new ZH 7 weeks later!

Alright, I better get more rest, since there is still work tomorrow. I'm so gonna tackle the task assigned to us! Ganbarou! Positive attitude!

Playing with water Up in the Air

2010-03-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

Today is the legendary swimming pool trip to Big Splash at Jurong West! The culprits today are Zack, Shida, Nadiah, Leroy, Haikal, and of course, me.

The place was fun to the max! Slides, jaccuzis, wave pools... It's almost like Wild Wild Wet, but ten times cheaper. The 'view' there is also good, if you guys catch my meaning! We played some water games planned by our own selves.

If I have anything to complain about, it's the guys' changing room, but that's all. Dirty, smelly... It's the worse changing room among all the swimming pools I've visited.

We left tired, hungry, and some of us ended up a sunburn. Ouch! >< How am I going to handle my ITP tomorrow with a sunburn?! However, it was damn fun! Guys, let's go there next time again!

Coming out of the place, we rendezvous with Sen Rong at the KFC outside, then made out way to Dhoby Ghaut for our movie. There, we met up with Ern, Ee Seuu and Ynex. After debating, we decided to watch Up in the Air, starring George Clooney. We had a dinner downstairs at the basement together, and Leroy had to leave soon.

We then entered the cinema, all preparing to watch a movie we hadn't even heard or knew about. After around 2 hours of sarcastic comedy, a man's job and his romance, we walked out of the theater. Well, I rate the movie a 7.5/10.

Since the time then read 9:40pm, we decided to head home... but not before some photo-taking! Thanks Ern for his amazing camera phone! :)

^Group Photo 1

^Group photo 2, which is pretty blur...

Me, Haikal, Ynex, Nadiah and Shida took the same train, while the others hopped on the other route. Chatted and joked all the way back till each of us alighted.

Now I need to get my stuff ready for my ITP! Ciao, all! Let's go all out again! =D

Animes to recommend!

2010-03-07T02:28:00.011+08:00

After knowing Ern, I've been constantly sent awesome animes by him. Watching them brings many feelings to my heart, because they're all so good! Here are my top few recommendations!

1) Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion

Geass. The power of absolute obedience. The Power of Kings is received by a castaway prince, Lelouch, from an immortal girl who holds the power of the Code, C.C. with one condition; to grant a wish of C.C.. With this power, Lelouch, as the symbol named Zero, creates a paramilitary organisation the Order of the Black Knights to battle against his father, half siblings and best friend in battles of wits to make an ideal world for his sister, Nunnally, to live in. This show has an excellent mix of mind games, strategies, and questioning of morals. It's also mecha! The storyline is awesome. This anime has 2 seasons, 25 episodes each!

2) Mobile Suit Gundam 00

A young boy once forced to be a terrorist. A man whose family was wiped out by terrorism. A runaway super soldier with split personalities who was meant to be disposed. A living bio-terminal of a super computer. The four of their fates are intertwined by the very personification of their very desire, the eradication of all war; the Gundams. Will they, as the Gundam Meisters of the paramilitary organisation Celestial Being, succeed in their goal? Like Code Geass, it also has 2 seasons, 25 episodes each, and a movie is coming out this September in Japan!

3) Darker than Black

Tokyo. The city has now been surrounded by an abnormal territory, known as 'Hell's Gate'. Soon after Hell's Gate appeared, the superhuman Contractors and the passive mediums, the Dolls start to appear at large in the city as well, while the heavenly bodies disappeared, replaced by false stars, each signifying a Contractor's life. Code-name Hei, is the top assassin of a mysterious organisation, known as 'The Syndicate'. Feared by all Contractors as the 'Black Reaper', Hei conducts missions for The Syndicate, with only one goal in mind, to find the whereabouts of his sister, Bai, who disappeared in an incident concerning another entity known as the 'Heaven's Gate' in South America a few years ago...

This anime also has 2 seasons. Season 1 has 25 episodes, Season 2 has 12 episodes, and OVAs are currently being broadcast. Very great action. Makes Matrix actions look easy.

4) New Mobile Report Gundam Wing

In the future, humans started to move to outer space to live in colonies. However, an assassination of the colonies' representative of peace, Heero Yuy, triggered a war between the colonies and Earth. Operation Meteor. The mysterious operation involves dropping five Gundams to Earth to wreak chaos. 5 young pilots piloted the units, and battles against Earth's Romefeller Foundation and their military, OZ...

This anime has 49 episodes and 1 movie. Very nice story to watch!

5) Clannad

An anime from a visual novel game of the same name. It features one male main character and 5 heroines, and their school life. The main character is Okazaki Tomoya, a delinquent, who had to stop playing basketball after an incident, and how his life changed after meeting the 5 heroines. This anime is full of comedy, but also tear-jerking moments. Recommended for those who like drama and love stories, with lots of comedy packed into it.

6) Seitokai no Ichizon

In Heikiyou High School in Hokkaido, 4 of the student council members are selected through a popularity poll, and the remaining 1 seat is given to the student with the highest grade in school. Enter Sugisaki Ken, the man with the highest grades in school. The other four remaining members of student council are cute and beautiful girls, which Ken describes as 'his harem', much to their constant objections and chagrin. The story also shows each of the past Ken has with the other members of the student council, which shaped him into the man he is.

This show is nice for its humour, parodies, references to boy love, a tiny pinch of fanservice and many fun characters. If you like pretty anime girls, this show is definitely for you! I really found it a pity when it had to end. =(

7) Hayate no Gotoku

Hayate no Gotoku features the main character Ayasaki Hayate, a 17-years old with extremely bad luck, as well as irresponsible parents who offered to sell his organs to cover their gambling debts. His encounter with Sanzenin Nagi changed his life, being given a job as her butler. Due to his job, fights with strange robots, creatures, demons and ghosts to protect his new mistress are common occurrences everyday! He also has to deal with the feelings that many girls have for him, despite being oblivious to it.

Like Seitokai, this show also features many whacky parodies of animes, references, whacky humour, with bits of fanservice.

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The above are what I have to recommend for the time being. After finishing the others sent to me, I'll once again introduce somemore animes to you all!

Hope you'll watch my recommendations, and enjoy! :]

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2010-03-06T02:29:00.000+08:00

When I entered SP, some of us New (or should I say Old?) Towners got together as a semi-clique. Namely, the four of us, Liwen, Shiwei, Felix, and... me.

Liwen found a boyfriend pretty quickly through the second term of the first year. To be expected.

Then Fel found his happiness.

Then now, Shiwei also.

Leaving me being the only one single.

Looks like... I'm once again surrounded by "In a Relationship FB Profile People" again?

I'm happy for them. I hope they are happy with their significant people for as long as possible.

I'm going to NS soon. I don't want to start something that will be filled with doubts about how I'll be dumped when I get enlisted. That's the reason why even though I have someone I really like, I don't want to go after her with full force. Because I don't want it to end negatively.

But I'm slightly lonely. Unlike them, I don't have someone to hug when I'm down. Someone that will always be behind me.

Can't help but feel that way, can I?

Hehs.

But still, congratulations to you three! Move so fast.

Our 2 years in Poly really did just went by, didn't it?

Being Human for Sophia's birthday outing

2010-03-05T21:37:00.001+08:00

Literally, what it said on the title.

Today, me, Zack and Ern got together at City Hall for an outing to celebrate Sophia's birthday! Got her a soft toy and some of her favourite. Ate at Pastamania together for lunch, then walked about.

We then went to watch the movie Being Human. It was a funny movie, haha. Got some good laughs. I rate it a 7/10. Mark Lee was great in the production.

Me and Zack played at an arcade hammer machine. Just when we asked Ern and Sophia to help us take a video, a bastard worker came up and covered the camera with his hand. Can't he talk? Attitude like shit one, him.

Again, a (belated) Happy Birthday to Sophia. It might not have been the best celebration, but I hope you enjoyed it. Sorry I didn't get any cake. ><

Meanwhile, I also need to get my ITP introduction letter done asap! >_<

Will post photos later on after I get them from Sophia's 10 Megapixel camera. :]

'Bye, Year 2. I'll miss you...

2010-03-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

Year 2 of Poly. This is a post dedicated to it.

Thank you for being such a wonderful year. I met a lot of great new friends and made a lot of pleasant memories, although some memories are more painful than others.

You've given me great mindf*cks with some modules, but I managed to step through them with help from some very important friends.

I entered SP ACER and knew many great people. I can't list all of them down here, but some examples are Zack, Clara, Ee Seuu, and people from Escapade like Sophia. :]

You've passed by so fast, almost like it's a dream. For that, eternally, memories of you will be in my heart.

With that... goodbye.

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My exams are over!

Yesterday, Ern came over to my house to give my sister some Maths tuition. Then he stayed over. Through the night, we watched some comedic videos and a little anime.

Then I went to his house today after lunch at Queensway, Katong Laksa! And some hotdog and ice-cream at Ikea. Took some anime from him. A lot of comedy made me rofl. Clannad rocks!

Zack and Ern wants to play CounterStrike again. CS anybody?

Right, time to go watch some Clannad. Ciao!

Tomorrow need to go back to school at 3pm to be briefed on ITP by Mr. Tng... Hope ITP will be fine! ><

^_^ JLPT4 Results ^_^

2010-03-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

Got it back!!! My JLPT4 results!!!!

A satisfactory score of 346/400. That's a percentage of 86.5%! ^~^

今からもっと頑張るんだ！　＾～＾

Mugging spree!

2010-03-01T14:27:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow's the last paper, Maths.

Time to mug! >_<

JY, everyone! =]

Isolated, alone, and miserable...

2010-02-27T23:54:00.001+08:00

Guess there are many people out there hating my guts for some reasons now. It's been pretty obvious about it, some more than others.

It's not that I don't know. I'm merely pretending not to know.

Friends. They support you to the extent that you can hang stars in the skies.

Friends. they comfort you and raise your spirits when you are down.

Friends. When they start to turn their backs on you... you fall into a pit where no one can pick you up. A pit called loneliness.

I haven't exactly been able to do the first and second above, but... what have I done to you guys to get hated to such extents? To extents that you have to drive me to being alone? To abandon me?

I know what an idiot I can be at times. What a jerk I can be. What a bastard I can even sometimes be. But isn't friends about accepting each other's flaws? Haven't I always tried to listen to you guys? Tried to change according to how you guys like me to be?

Because, to me, you guys sunk to the level of being the third kind of friend above.

If you also want to make other people hate me, congratulations. You definitely succeeded.

I guess you guys won't even care if I go die now. If that is the case, then go on.

2 down, 1 more to go!

2010-02-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

Out of my three papers, there is only one more to go! But it's the toughie: Maths. Must start chionging during weekend.

IA paper today done. I think I did fairly okay. Quite a coincidence that while choosing a seat in the Hilltop Library for some last minute revision, I happened to chance upon Agnes at the table in front of me. Didn't even notice her cos I was in a bit of a rush, haha, till she called me.

Chatted with Ern and Sunny today after the paper about anime, manga and stuff. Maybe it's because we're all busy studying, but I felt like I haven't talked to Sunny in ages. I then went to his house for like 2 minutes to collect my toolbox.

Going to rest for tonight. Right now sipping a Coke while typing out a post in an air-con room. :P

Played Blackjack Pro on FB just now. I can't go casino with my skills. -.- My credits were $135 -> $300 -> $45. Epic fail. >_<

Tomorrow's Jap lesson's been postponed to 5pm! Great, more time for me to go swimming. Been snacking way too much recently. Pissed off at myself for that. -.-

After exams got ITP. Mentor Media... Must maintain a good working ethic during ITP and create a good impression in front of the superiors.

But before ITP, right after the papers, there'll be outings to attend and fun fun fun for 2-3 days! :] Can't wait.

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You guys are right. I've been too rushed. I'd scare any girl away if I advance so fast towards her. I'm going to do it, slowly...

She'll think I'm not serious, cos I suddenly liked her after meeting her again. Even if my feelings are real, who's going to believe it? Not her. She'd be more scared and repulsed than happy. Need to build up my confidence too.

Meanwhile, the money I saved for plans to take her out and stuff can be used for fun and games and certain other reasons.

I guess I was being selfish. I didn't want to waste any opportune time with her, cos in 1 year's time, I'll be in NS already.

But if I rush into things, I won't even get one second with her.

But I really want to see her, even now, this very second.

This is a good song to describe my predicament right now.

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This is a song by Yuna Ito feat. Spontania, called 今でも会いたいよ・・・ (Ima Demo Aitai Yo...). The name translates to 'Even now, I want to meet you...'. A description of how I'm feeling now about her...

Because I really want to see her.

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Well, lights out, and ciao! I keep you guys updated on my miserably boring life with no activities at all. :D

Troubled... again

2010-02-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

Yo folks!!! The past few days, nothing has happened much, except that 2 days ago, me and Haikal and Zack went to the gym, and then me and Haikal went to swim at night. The plan has begun after all.

Other from that, it's been study sessions with Ernthechamp for the exams! Stress sia...

MMS down for today. Personally, I don't find it easy nor difficult. I don't think I can score...

Next paper is IA. Super power memory work is going to come in handy!

But before that, I guess I'll be gyming tomorrow with Haikal again. After all, the plan is still progressing. :]

The exams are progressing now, and it's going to take a lot of energy and stress out of me. Ern told me to just relax and not be too stressed if I want to score well. Tells me it works all the time for him. If only it works for me.

I can't even relax though I hope I can! Need to try though...

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I think she knows I like her, and I think she might be bothered by it.

I mean, I'd be overoptimistic if I hope that a girl wouldn't guess that a guy likes her after he asks her out (and get turned down in the process). And also really stupid.

But I don't know if my existence is bothering her because of it. As in, me existing already bothers her. I know some girls thinks that the guys who likes them freak them out.

I hope she isn't, though. She is my motivation right now. To do a lot of things. To lose weight. To try my hardest for my studies for my future. To be a better man.

If she hates me, I think I'll be struck pretty low.

I'm going to try to ask her out again, and if she turns me down this time... I'm guessing she won't be as kind as she was in her reject the last time. :/

And I'm not foolish enough to tell myself I'm ready for the blow. Whoever it might be, such blows will always hurt, no matter what.

Wish me luck. In everything.